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I am back...

2010-02-22T08:19:00.004+08:00

I am back in sg from my 3D2N KL trip and I am glad I had an enjoyable moment in this trip....not only get to meetup with jack, marcus and alvin, i also get to know new group of friends whom were friends of davin.

My first day in KL was at my friend, Eric's place as there was a housewarming party and alot of his friends were invited...apart from his group of friends, I went over with Andrew and Ben where Andrew drove us cos Ben dunno the way well and plus he didnt wanna drive as later in the night we might be going clubbing...so there we all are at Eric's housewarming party n thanks to him for being a great host + his group of fun-loving friends like Joe, May, Georgene, etc...

@ Eric's Housewarming : Eric, Joe, eSther, Davin, Ram & Patrick

After the housewarming, we all get ready and then board onto 3 different cars down to Bukit Bintang for clubbing time...over at the club it was another round of fun and happy moments...esp just by seeing how Davin and Joe was playing "5-10", so funny until every part of it the rest of us were laughing like hell....

Joe & Davin playing "5-10"...

In this above pic : May, Georgene, Ricky, Andrew, Ben & eSther

something to look forward..

2010-02-16T16:25:00.000+08:00

yeah, in a few more days I will not be in Singapore but away to KL to celebrate the CNY festive season with my KL lovebusts and some of "his" friends and him...this gonna be the first KL trip in the year 2010 and I guess with this new group of friends in KL, it will definitely be a good and fruitful trip...

apart from this KL trip, another thing that i m looking forward to would be the CNY festive season whereby I can get to meet up with many of my relatives whom haven't seen them for long....but most importantly would be the red packets from the adults, wahahah!!!

as for the fun and entertainment i gonna have in KL, i would update it the moment i return back to Singapore...cya!!!

Is he the one???

2010-02-13T23:27:00.001+08:00

由始至终我从不相信这世界会有真爱，我也从没机会遇到我心中的那有缘人。。。直到他的出现。我和他的相遇其实很奇妙，想必应该是缘分让我们遇到彼此。我们俩其实早一阵子就认识对方了，但即使看到对方也只是简单的问候，从不会有太多的谈话，甚至也从没想过要交换联络号码，直到上个月的那次相遇，拉进了我们彼此的关系。

当缘分悄悄出现，怎么样挡都挡不了。。。我和他相处的时间变多了，对于彼此的了解也慢慢的有所增加，同时也习惯有他在身旁。他的诚实稳重，开朗心情，活泼外向的性格正是让我在不知不觉的情况下吸引到了。也因为他经常把他对我的称呼如“老婆”或“女朋友”挂在嘴里，甚至于用这些称呼介绍我给他周围的朋友认识，让我不知不觉的爱上这个人。

就在这一晚，我突然鼓起勇气决定向他说出我心中对他的这份情感。我完全没想到后果，只知道凭我的感觉走应该有失措。但其实我想这勇气也来自于这段期间他所给予我的关心和注视我的存在，让我不惜后果的向他表白。于是便传了个简讯给他，告诉他我对他的这份爱。

在几分中后，他回复了。。。简讯里述说他不否认他和我认识的这段期间，我们有过许多愉快的时刻，也很感谢我这一阵子不断的在旁帮他解决他任何遇到的问题。。。他不拒绝反而决定给予彼此机会，尝试这份爱情并让一切将顺其自然。

也就是这样，我接受了。。。

Welcoming the Year 2010....

2010-02-11T16:05:00.000+08:00

It's the year of the Roaring Tiger - 2010...a new beginning, a new chapter and a new set of life awaiting for me. Hmm, so wad are my new year resolutions??? Guess would be those as stated below based on level of priority....

1. Career

2. Finances

3. Love

4. Family

I hope this would be a good year for me and that I wont allow myself to shed a single tear neither would I allow anyone to hurt me. I told myself to be strong and hve faith that no matter what problems or setbacks I face, my family and friends would be there to give me their support cos i know ESTHER WILL NOT BE ALONE!!!

Nothing but a failure...

2009-12-18T00:11:00.002+08:00

Yeah, tat is me...NOTHING BUT A FAILURE!!!

That was what someone told me few weeks ago...a GREAT disappointment to my parents, a disgrace to the society...wasting her 27 years of life with no achievements...just like a useless shell, being deserted on a deserted beach....

At this current age still idling around doing nothing...with no ideal career and no fixed income for herself yet still have to rely on her parents to feed her daily lives...apart from tat, she is also a disgrace to the world for whatever things that she did, people thinks there is a motive behind it or would think tat is cos I am seeking FAME & ATTENTION.

All these while I have been telling myself to be true and good, not only to myself and also to the poeple around me...i believe that if they are happy with my accompany and that I am able to bring them happiness, I myself will gain the happiness too. Thus, I have been putting in alot of effort to help them as much as I can by going the extra mile...even it is out of my limits I never say NO to them cos I knew that this time I offered my helping hand to them, next time when I needed such pillar of support, someone would be there for me.

But why did I ended up in such a tragic ending for now??? Not only have I been able to find an ideal career for myself...friends left me, thinking I am nothing but HASSLE & TROUBLE...family thinks I am a disgrace to them and a good-for-nothing person...

Was it wrong of me to be nice and good to my friends? Was it wrong of me to truly show concern to friends whom need it? Was it what i wanted for my epilepsy? Was it the way I want it to be in terms of losing my job? Am I really trying to attract attention or gain fame by knowing more people? Have I brought harm, hassle and trouble to any one of your life? Am I really a disgrace to al my friends, my family???

Does that mean that I should put an end to my current life now since I am nothing but just a useless empty shell??? If that day were to come, I guess nobody would have even remember who the hell is esther aka hesther....people would only see that as "oh, that hassle gal ah...should have vanished from this world earlier since she is nothing but trouble and couldnt even contribute anything to the society, to the family or to her friends!!!"

I had really lost my directions...lost the motivation to move on....lost the hope in trusting people...lost the faith that there are people whom will appreciate her truly...lost the belief that she still has the chance to stay in this world...lost her soul, sense of love & feelings...had LOST EVERYTHING!!!

Is he the one???

2009-11-05T14:56:00.003+08:00

erm, i dunno if my instincts were right this time but somehow i do felt really comfortable chatting with "him" while on msn yesterday night...that i see abit of my eurasian ex-bf, Blue on "him".

had a long day ytdy and after the mini bday celebration for dezmond over at his place, it was coming to 12am plus when i left with shalom for cab back home...then back at home was busy uploading the photos tat was taken previously at his place and on the other side chatting with my sweetheart, darling and "him" over in msn.

the talk over in msn with "him" was really comfortable until we both didnt wanna end the conversation until 4am where we couldnt take it any further le cos really very tired and sleepy already...

hmm...do hope he is the one i have been waiting for cos based on the few hours of conversation can really sense he is nice person to get along with...as for now, just leave everything as it is and what is meant for me, eventually will be lor....

What does my name means?

2009-11-04T15:35:00.003+08:00

I was really bored at work and there is nothing much for me to work on thus decided to go Google.com to search for some stuffs in there....the first thing that comes into my mind is find out the meaning and origin of my name - Esther.

there in google.com found a link to it and below explains what my name is and where is it from....

http://www.thinkbabynames.com/meaning/0/Esther

The girl's name Esther \e-sther, es-ther\ is pronounced ESS-ter. It is of Persian origin, and its meaning is "myrtle leaf". Also possibly (Persian) "star". Biblical: a young Hebrew woman named Hadassah who became the wife of the Persian king Ahasuerus, and risked her life to save her people. Jews celebrate the festival of Purim in memory of her.

Apart from the above explaination, i also realized there are other variations on how the name was being called and the next thing that comes to my mind is choose a unique way of spelling the name without changing the addressing....that is instead of Esther Yew Bee Ting, it will be Hesther Yew Bee Ting. The next thing i gonna do is having this name be included in my NRIC and updating the ugly photo in it...think after the 13th of this month there will be a list of things i gonna do and achieve.

i guess not possible...

2009-11-04T14:43:00.002+08:00

erm, towards him I couldnt bring myself to be angry towards him for too long and sometimes felt that I am really indebted to him cos during our short-term of "cold war", sure bound to see him within my vicinity...like cant get him out of my sight completely.

i had a bad day yesterday and my mood was like shit...all the whole of ytdy glad my sweetheart was around to hear my complains despite him busy rushing for his assignments whereby I am really appreciative...then at night after a busy hectic day went back home, took a short rest before going on msn.

saw him online and he nudged me a few times but i ignored cos didnt feel like talking to him...shortly i give him a call on his mobile and there was where i started bitching towards him on conversational topics like me going early over to KL and other stuffs...it puzzled him cos my sudden bitchinesswas too much for him to take. Before i started bitching, he actually did ask is it something sad that happened to me over at work or some other things that is troubling me thus i sound so sianz but didnt wanna tell him the actual reason so started bitching at him...the phone conversation didnt go long cos he had to get back to some of his work so we ended the call...

shortly saw him on msn and awhile later, i popped the question of is it a must for me to attend his bday this comin sat over at his place? It was merely a question but didnt know it could piss him off so much that he f***ed me off straight away. He goes on and on f***ing me like hell and saying very nasty things....in the end it was my turn whom couldnt take it and said even nasty things...so much that i told him if it's too much for him to take of my attitude, then by all means I GET OUTTA HIS LIFE!!!

thus sign off from msn, shut down my lappie....switch off my mobile and off to bed!!! I am very hurt by whatever he said in msn...not being understanding to my bad day somemore adding more to my problems......haix.

but then again, i cant find any reason to put up with the anger i had on him for too long...somehow would still miss the calls or sms coming from him in the morning or in the afternoon. Just like today, without my hp by my side i felt so uneasy then i dun have the mood to work thus by lunch time went back home just to check if there is any sms or calls from him...indeed saw a missed call from him.

guess wad, apart from tat while i m on my way back to office i saw someone familiar near the road junction of bugis X-junction...it was him with a black top n jeans together with a blue umbrella in his hand. The next moment when i was back in the office tried calling him and finally after 4 tries managed to get him...ask what was he doing over at bugis and did he looked for me in the morning???

slowly everything seems to return to normal...he asked if i wanna meet up with him for dinner tonight cos he will be at the gym but i told him how am i gonna contact him where i didnt had my mobile phone with me today...finally decided that after my work at the second place, i will go over to True Fitness to find him n then we will go have our dinner.

hmm...seems so true like wad my sweetheart has told me lor. It is not gonna be long "cold war" between me and him cos we both already know the importance of having each other so the most is one day of "cold war" and the next day we both will be back to normal...i think he somehow has become "someone of important value" to my life and there is no reason i could find to have him removed away from my life....

Is it so difficult?

2009-10-28T23:16:00.002+08:00

Good things never stay forever for me...few days ago I was still enjoying myself happily with my lovebusts in KL, having my first-time experience taking an aeroplane and having the best bday celebration for 2 of my closest friends and now all these seems to drift from me further apart, leaving nothing but endless tears rolling down from my eyes, bleeding inside me...

All i asked for is trust and understanding, is it so hard to achieve???

I went for my trip the second time to K.L cos it was a friend's bday and I believed they would be able to take away my worries and problems, then bring happy moments to me. Indeed I really had a good time with them during the four days there but happy moments dun stay long with me always, i really dun understand why???

I had tendered my resignation before I left for my KL trip...I knew it was not a harsh decision but after serious thought that I should let go of this current job I am working since it's a place where I can't gain that little respect for myself. After tendering the letter, basically I am doing nothing but basic tasks like follow-ups with recent activities, pasting & sticking of postcards, etc...all that just for November 13th to arrive.

But then something really sad happen 2 hours ago, making me felt really sad and at loss....

I was back to work after having lunch with my darling and sister and as usual, working on the amendments of the date tat was on the postcard...everything seems alright until my colleague told me that tml I will have to be at the event site @ 9.45am sharp and will be stationed the whole day there...apart from that, i gotta make sure the 2k postcards have to be ready for tml's events...upon hearing tat, i was like WTF how could it be even possible to finish the remaining 800 postcards within that short time and I thought tat stupid idiot was telling me to "WITHDRAW FROM ALL RELATED MATTERS PERTAINING TO THAT EVENT"??? Then why the hell do I still need to be stationed there tml???

Since that is what they expect from me, even though i hated it i still have to go along with it thus worked extremely fast on the postcards...on the other side was trying to get my mum to inform her that I will be going over to my colleague's place for the night to hurry the postcard thingy and then tml go straight from her place to the event site. Finally I managed to get her and before I could seek her permission and explain why the need to do so, she jumped to conclusion that I might as well move all my stuffs and dun ever come back!!!

I was like WTF, is there a need for her to say such hurtful things before getting things right??? Previously she had already hurt me badly by saying something really unpleasant and this time round again didnt get the true facts right and concluded based on her own thinking...I had no choice but to call back and tell her all i ask for is that 10mins to finish what I eventually want to say...

Thereafter, I hang up the phone and give myself some time to calm down....while doing so, tears started rolling down from my eyes...the reason why i cried was cos on my side, I have been trying very hard to give her a good living. I know I am not earning much thus took up another cleaning job despite me being drained out...I know my health wasn't good and due to epilepsy it is always an disadvantage if I got myself too stressed out but there I tell myself to do the best out of everything...to be careful at work, to take good care of my health just to salvage this current job of mine but after all the efforts I have tried, it doesn't seems to help and there i gonna say goodbye to it...but what hurts me is my mum never understands what I have been going through at work and never had the patience to hear all my pains and sorrows I am facing at work.

The worse problem I am facing currently is I just gotta know from the HR department that I might not be getting any salary after all the deductions of over-taken vacation and medical leave...how am I gonna let my mum know bout this, she sure gonna jump to her own conclusions and say nasty comments again. Thus despite the true fact that I am really not getting any salary, I will still have to fork out that $500 to give both her and my uncle...finances is one issue, another issue is just a simple request of staying over at my friends place to rush out tat task that will be needed for tml...if I dun respect her as my mother, would i even bother to call her urgently to inform her of the current situation I am facing??? No advices or nice words to console me yet said those nasty comments to me...sometimes I wonder have I really been a failure as a daughter to her???

I already hated myself for having such a sickness that caused me to lose so many working opportunities...already hated the kind of environment I am currently in....all I asked is tat simple care and concern from family, is it so difficult to achieve??? I had no choice but to turn to friends cos at least they can cheer me up even though they cant provide any solutions to my problems. All i asked for is a patient listening ear, someone to cheer me up to bring away the sadness and pain inside me, IS IT REALLY THAT DIFFICULT!!!

an enjoyable ni+e....

2009-08-07T20:22:00.007+08:00

it was around 6.35pm when I reached orchard cine, just after I finished work then came over to meet up with my love~bursts whom are xin kai, weijie & joshua...this meetup was very sudden but glad they didnt mind me joining them so we all decided to go catch the movie - "Hangover"

The movie : Hangover

half-way thru' the movie, I was busy sms~ing my sweetieboy Blaise asking where is he and if he's alright to meet me and my love~bursts...since he had no obligations so the moment the movie ended, all of us went over to KFC to meet him. Over at KFC waited for my sweetieboy to finish his meal then thereafter all of us go over to the food court @ Meridean where the rest of us grab some light bites there...

our last stop of the day was somewhere near Plaza Singapura where we all stop over for some cam-whoring shots, which is all our favorites....thanks to my love~bursts and sweetieboy for such a great moment spent. Love em' all...

our cam-whore shots....

sianz....

2009-07-27T14:53:00.003+08:00

today morning was late for work thus mood wasn't so good for the day + something bad happen the moment i step into the office, it just doubles up my negative mood...haix, how i wish every friday comes fast cos for now the only day i would really enjoy thru'ut da whole of the week would be on Saturdays lor where I can get together with my love-bursts at clubs, cam-whoring, dancing n drinking...bringing our life to the fullest...

I think if i wan to work happily, there must be some motivation and how does these motivation come from??? Haha, it has got to be photos of me and my love-bursts definitely...then next is to decorate my office area such that it is not so dull and boring. Erm, guess I gonna do some shopping after work this evening and also get my broadband on mobile going cos w/o I.A in my workplace, it just kills me off to boredom~ness!!!

But i have alot of things for me to look forward to in the month of August...besides a few events that I am involved in, there are few mondays of the month i will be taking leave cos i hate "MONDAY BLUES", last but not least is the long holiday for National Day which is all the way from 7th August to 10th August, a total of 4 days. Wow, i can sense ZIRCA & PLAY is calling me lol!!!

Too bad my pay day is on the 12th if not I would be able to enjoy myself even more...but I guess with my love-bursts around, they wont allow me to have any chance to be sad one lor....love them all alot for what they have brought to me all these while...

Was it a good sign?

2009-07-22T23:33:00.000+08:00

A gd dinner after a busy day at work supposed to be something relaxing right but why do I feel so tensed and sad before i could relaxed ??? I was suppose to meet him 6.45pm at orchard but cos previously he say there could be changes n keep me informed but no news so thus I popped the question asking was it still fixed at 6.45pm. He seems like very pissed off lor and when i suggested him going over to somerset cos i wan meet a friend there he said why didnt I mention earlier...

Haix, wad a bad start before I could have my dinner....

But there were worse...when we went to this cafe for our dinner right after settling down, he starts shooting off at me like hell...cursing n swearing at me like hell lor. It was only almost 30mins later I tried to simmer him down and tell him my stand to the problems he sees in me and had it all cleared but by then my appetite already ruined and i started feeling nauseous out of no reason...

In the end, he tries to ask the waitress to ask the chef of the restaurant if they could make me a cup of ginger drink cos i was unwell and also make sure I at least have some light food...making sure i dun go hungry. Somehow dis small kind gesture from him puzzled me...but felt good in a way he is showing his concern, guess i m honoured.

Once dinner was done, we both were there chatting about all kinds of stuffs and just a casual talk can last us both till almost coming to 9pm before we went over to Wisma where he did some shopping....over one boutique shop, he actualli asked me for some advice over some stuffs he wanted to get n even seek my opinion on which suits him more...

Apart from all these, the last thing he did was taking the initiative to drop me off via taxi at my place before heading over to his and then an sms telling me that today's dinner was on him...I said that was a surprise cos all these while he would just go off in a cab w/o asking if i wanna take a ride with me n neither would he treat me cos he always make it clear is on Dutch but dunno why all these today???

Is it a good sign or wad, i really dunno???

eSther is broke!!!

2009-07-21T15:35:00.003+08:00

haix, how the hell am i going to survive sia when I dun have a single amount with me neither do i have it in the bank??? Furthermore the one in the bank is still OVERDRAFT!!! Oh my, it's really driving me crazy lor...

first was the outstanding money to True Fitness gym membership of up to $160...then it was the loan to a friend of up to $425...all these amounting to a total of $600 lor!!! The worse thing of all is that my next pay day will only be on the 12th August which means for the next 3 weeks what am I going to survive on where I dun have a single amount left if I were to clear off some important outstanding bills???

poor me!!! tell me wad is the fastest way to earn fast cash money such that i can clear all these bills and be BILLS-FREE???

eSther is dead...

2009-07-14T21:49:00.003+08:00

I guess at this point of time I have no more strength to fight any further...in a way I declined DEATH for myself. Why am I trying so hard, putting in so much effort but yet still unable to let her friends see the true side of whom eSther really was...

All came at one go...hurting me one after another...to a way I really cant take it any further. First was A whom came over to say I am an irriating freak, not able to understand not anybody could be so "FREE" as me. Then came B whom came to see from then onwards, he finds it hard to place trust in me in the future just cos I failed to turned up for the dinner appointment I had arranged with him earlier. Then came C whom thinks I have bad/ill intentions when I dropped by his working place where my main intention was cos I was on my way for lunch, happen to see him working there and out of politeness went in to say "Hi". Last but not least was D whose intergrity has been "offended" by me cos of a sms I had sent over to him...

To think all the above happened to me continuously since last thursday till today...how would anyone understand how hurt I felt when such things kept happening??? All these while, I have been trying to give my best to all my friends without asking for anything in return...trying to be there for anyone whom needs my help, trying to bring joy and happiness to their life...but in the end such things still happen. People still see me that I seems to have ill intentions when I am trying to be nice, thinking I have a motive for being nice to them...

I had enough...but there i understand I had no one to blame except MYSELF!!! I died in my own weakness - BEING TOO EMOTIONAL!!! If i were to calm myself down, sort out my thoughts then such things wouldnt have trigger me to send out those hurting SMSes to friends whom are not in the fault but yet those that really see me as their true friends....i guess from D's attitude towards me was right.

By doing so to me, I will then learn that friends are not to be taken for granted...that being emotional will bring me to nothing but more severe problems...all these while I thought I am in the right until today at this point of time i realized I am WRONG!!!

What comes around goes around....now i get to feel how it was to made such a mistake!!!

eSther has realized her mistake but everything is too late...there is nothing she can do to bring everything back to normal. SHE IS DEAD AND GONE FOREVER FROM THIS WORLD!!!

My assurance..

2009-05-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

For now, I am having Bryan, Joel, Dennis and him in my life...each of them plays a part in my life. But no matter what, he is still the most important person in my life. For the rest, it's not that I dun matter them but somehow is a kind of different relationship i would have as compared to with him...

For him, it has been coming to almost 3 years since we first knew each other...there were obstacles and problems arising that caused this relationship to break...there were other factors causing it to come to an end but with both our strong determination, we managed to held on tight till today. I guess we both have strong EGOs...meaning to say deep inside we knew we need each other badly but cos of our EGO and he being "Strong", we tend to forsake each other some times...i understand his insecure that anytime he will lose me this friend to other friends of mine but to me, such things wont happen and I wont give any chance for it to happen. To me, he is far more important than anyone else...the kind of relationship we had is not just based on a 1 or 2 day thing but built up slowly by the both of us in which we been through lots of things to what we have become of NOW!!! He to me is someone IRREPLACEABLE!!! I can only have one LOVERBOY in my life and this person is nobody but HIM!

If you happen to read this entry, hope you will understand how important you are to me...this strong affinity i had with you is not easily replaced...i wouldnt let go of this special bond i had with you unless the day comes when you yourself tells me personally that U WANT ME OUT OF UR LIFE, else I would hope that you would stay with me not just for now but FOREVER!!!

The differences...

2009-05-26T23:09:00.001+08:00

~ From the previous entry~

Like i mention having bryan, joel and dennis recently...

I guess this is me and dunno if it's a gd or a bad point...for me to know a friend seems to be very easy. It takes me only a day to click with that person and thereafter if there is further meet-ups or contacts, it will bring me n that friend further...but then again things comes and go very quickly for me which is something negative and hurting. I can get to know this friend within a week and enjoyed whatever moments with him/her but then i could lose him anytime...it could be after a week or so no more contacts or maybe is CALLED OFF!!!

I guess the reason why I am able to "click" so well with them is cos I am a person with no "心计" and I am fine with anyone whom wants to be friends with me...i wont bother what will happen in the future but matters more important would be the PRESENT. If i am not able to handle the present, what am i to talk about the future, am i right???

For bryan and joel, I am still trying my best to make them feel comfortable with my presence since they made their choice of having me as their closest best friend. I wouldnt reject anyone that helds so much confidence in me thus i would just welcome them with my big hands...but whether it works it out depends on the effort me or them puts in.

As for Dennis, he was once close to me but then when he was with dezmond things start to change and i thought i had been forgotten but all these while he had proved to me that he didnt give me up and he even assured me that I am the only one that could make him so happy, enjoying what he has...i initially didnt believe it until slowly i could feel that he realy mean it as he did express it through actions which was seen by me...

To you...i hope you could understand I am really treasuring what i have and to me, you are still one whom I see as someone really important. I had assured you so many times that things wont change cos some other people came into my life...i wouldnt give u up just cos i found another significant one. But i understand ur commitments and you cant be with me all the time...so i am glad others can care n concern for me when you are not able to be there for me...so do hope you could understand.

Am i right or wrong???

2009-05-25T10:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm, things seems to be getting out of hand again...on the other hand, distance between me and loverboy seems to be drifting further and further apart. I dunno if I am thinking too much but somehow or rather I have this feeling that my relationship with my loverboy is slowly dying off and I do have examples to explain why am I feeling that way...

Ever since he was attached and having a new dog in his life, things start to change...there are lesser meet-ups and lesser contacts. There were times we both would quarrel over small stuffs leading us to giving each other a cold shoulder for at least 1 or 2 days. Initially things weren't tat bad but after yesterday, I realized I am slowly not understanding him tat well anymore....

All along, he didnt like me going around picking up "stones" cos he knew that these "stones" would one day hurt me and left me but i always chose to ignore his advices then in the end made myself so hurt...i think the recent one was me having new friends in my life like Joel, Bryan and Dennis...Somehow or rather, I have been spending alot of time with them all and not much with him...cos of such, we ended up quarreling.

I dunno was it wrong of me having new friends in my life at any point of my life but no matter who they are, it's definitely just part n parcel of my life...i welcome my doors wide to anyone whom wanna come in and even though their stay in my life was a short one, i wouldnt mind but at least I can confidently said to myself that I have brought them happy moments and during the period of friendship i had with them, I am really trying to give my best as a friend to them...even though knowing that at any one day they could have left me.

All these are just part of learning and growing up experiences to me...from each and every friend whom I know, I definitely learn something out of that friendship. As to how long each of them may stay, nobody has the answers to it but to tell myself just give my best to them all is the only thing I can do...

@ PLAY...

2009-05-24T09:27:00.005+08:00

Hmm, somehow or rather a busy day for me but once again I need to appologise to my loverboy that while at clubbing I neglected him but there is a reason why am i doing so...

Today i was pretty early again @ PLAY but glad this time I had Boy to acc me else i sure get bored one lor...while waiting i was talking to Boy and on the other hand SMSing my loverboy whom seems to have some problem with a friend of his.

Actually i was kinda of pissed off when the moment i saw two people coming towards my direction...it seems to be my loverboy n his friend. The reason I was pissed off cos just a min ago he was telling me that there was a misunderstanding thus lead to the quarrel but the next moment they were like alright cos they came TOGETHER!!! But nvm since everything has been cleared up so thus didnt really take it to heart and went in to club together with the both of them and my other friends....

I guess today's theme of our own is BLUE cos many of us seems to be in BLUE!!! Like Phil, Warren and I were all in blue top LOL...dun believe ah, see below lor.

There are more pics but me lazy to upload so anyone whom wan to see might need to go to my facebook to take a look...overall there wasn't tat fun cos half of the time i was not in PLAY but at some other place which makes Dave abit pissed off...but hope he understands cos previously he told me there was some misunderstanding with kelvin so thought of like letting them settle their problems...i was just letting them both have their "free space"....nothing much.

@ Queenstown IKEA

2009-05-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

I was really out of wits...if things were to continue not going my way, it's soon gonna drive me crazy lor but glad I was lucky cos had friends and my loverboy's concern so it wasn't tat bad afterall...so went on busy with my stuffs but the purpose of this entry is specially for my loverboy and no one else...i hope when he sees it he would understand the rationale behind it.

As I was really vexed with my current situation thus hoped to give myself some time off...so there I am alone at Harbour Front walking around. At a point of time i tried to contact my loverboy to ask if he could meet up with me after work such that i could have him to cheer me up and no matter wad, he is always the first tat would come into my mind.

But to my disappointment he was not able to meet me thus I had to walk alone myself...Haix, eSther is still weak afterall lor so in the end had no choice but to ask dennis n joel if they are ard at VivoCity. Glad they were ard so thus went over to join them...hang ard vivo for awhile before making our way to iKea @ Queenstown cos Dennis needs to get some things over there.

I was somehow better when I saw the both of them...I didnt have to tell them anything but somehow or rather i felt really happy when i saw them. At da moment, I was thinking how nice it could be if my loverboy is ard but since he couldnt make it....it's alright cos he got me another 2 other angels to cheer me up so indeed i do felt better.

Thanks to the both of them for the accompanying...i really appreciate.

As for my loverboy, a word of APOLOGY is wad i wanna tell u....

I am not telling you I was with them cos it was very sudden and plus at da moment i am feeling really down so needed someone badly....hope u understand.

Remember, U WILL NEVER BE REPLACED by anyone!!!

I AM TIRED!!!

2009-05-17T23:32:00.002+08:00

Tired be it mentally or physically...plus sick of the kind of life I am going through now. It's been almost coming to 6 mths since I am unemployed, starting still alright cos had some savings to pull me thru' but now not anymore...I am feeling out of breath when it comes to monetary issues and really struggling hard to make it through lor...

Things are not going the way I want it to be...I have been searching for jobs, sending in several resumes, going for several interviews but not yet a reply from any one of them...on the other hand searching for best of friend to stay with me whenever i need a shoulder to rely on but till now no avail. Lastly, trying to search for the "Mr Right" in my life but have been searching since three years ago but yet to found that RIGHT person!!!

I felt my life full of shit...I have lost the determination to live on and neither do I still find any hope in continuing my life. But there is nothing much I can do cos I HAVE ALSO LOST THE WILL OF FIGHTING ON!!!

In this world only the STRONG one will survive but those weakling ones like me bound to die lor...

I just hope my only companion would arrived at my house soon to changed my sucky life...GOD, PLEASE GRANT ME THAT LAST WISH!!!

The things I want to do with my family!

2009-05-13T01:09:00.003+08:00

I think the best thing in life is doing happy things together with one's dearest ones...something that everyone in the family would enjoy together. The reason is because in our daily lives, each and every member has their different roles to play a part and then apart from that, each of us also have important things like building up their careers.

When such important things comes into the picture, small things tend to be left out and be forgotten, such as bringing the family together to sit down for a simple thing like having dinner together as a family or spending "Family Time" moments together.

For me, I have always my family to be close to one another...I have been trying to bring the whole family together to share the happy moments I have for them but it always never happen because things always turn out negative at the very last minute, just like a recent incident during the Vesak Day Public Holiday.

That day I was supposed to bring my whole family for a new experience on the Singapore Flyer but in the end things cropped up and thus the idea was being called off. I had everything planned nicely in the way we first had lunch over at Marina Square and then walks over to the Singapore Flyer for a magnificent ride but just when we were about to make our way there, my mum received a call from her boss that some things cropped up in the office thus needs my mum to be there cos only my mum has the keys to tat office and plus it is not a public holdiay for American Company.

In the end had to head back home instead while my mum goes over to the office where she is working while me and my sis headed back home...tat was indeed very disappointing and we could not continue our trip cos by the time my mum is done settling her stuffs, it's already late evening so find it pointless to go there as another reason was cos my dad had to go back for his night shift work in the night.

Having a one-time experience in The Singapore Flyer is what I have been hoping for together with my family...I guess it will be a thrilling experience where you can enjoy the beautiful and magnificient view with your loved ones together.

Signing off
Esther

"Start planning for your own Family Day Out on 30 May 2009! Visit www.nfc.sg!"

Looking forward.....

2009-05-06T14:47:00.002+08:00

Hmm, there are a few things which I am looking forward to lor...from this wk all da way to next week lor. Haahaa..and all these things that i am looking forward to is something that can add colors to my life lor.

First is the coming weekend where I will be away to Batam for a 2D1N trip together with my family...it will be a 2D1N shopping trip where we will be brought to this famous Nagoya Hill Shopping Mall and apart from that, this trip will also be a relaxation one where on our first day we will go Free & Easy Tour brought by Tour Guide, Ms Esther...LOL. Most probably will bring my mum and sis go Sightseeing and Massage around Batam, the small island...

The second thing i am looking forward would be a "new member" coming into my family...it's a dog which i have been hoping to get for myself but this time credits all goes to dave for helping me get this Cavalier King Charles in which his colleague is giving away...it's a 3 yr old male CKC but I can only picked it up after my batam trip which is on the 11th. That was the reason why these few days I have been going around doing research on all information related to Cavalier King Charles breeds...

So looking forward to all these happy stuffs....

Thanks...

2009-05-05T23:53:00.000+08:00

I almost spoil the day tat was meant to be an enjoyable day for me, joel and dave but glad God really loved me and saved me from the sad happening...making my day really an enjoyable one for me.

Like I mention the sad thing almost happen...it happen lidat -> " I was supposed to meet Joel @ 3.30pm over at Somerset MRT Station Control and then from there go over to Bugis to meet up with Dave but in the end cos of my student's problem, I had it delayed so by the time I reach Somerset Station it was already 4.20pm and Joel was nowhere to be seen...I guess he could have went off but what makes me sad was would Joel be angry for me being so late??? Thus I tried to call him thru' his hp but no avail cos his hp low batt le...then tried calling his house to see if he is at home but also no avail. I even tried asking Bryan if there is other ways tat i could get Joel but his suggestion was to wait at the station for awhile more...indeed i was lucky that i got him finally."

I tried the last time by calling his house and finally I got him...thus quickly tell him where to meet later and what are the plans after we both met up with Dave over at Bugis. Once I am done informing him, I then took the train down to Bugis and went over to the National Library to look for Dave and went back to Bugis station again to wait for Joel. He finally came ard 6pm and the three of us quickly go over to Beach Road where dave makes his police report for the item he had lost over at Sentosa last Sunday.

The whole process was pretty much quick so after 15mins everything was settled thus we left the place and took a bus back to Bugis Junction where we decided on Fish & Co. to have our dinner....reason why we decided on Fish & Co. cos Dave and I missed our All-Time favorite - "Seafood Platter for 2" from there.

After dinner, the three of us went over to the library and all was like rushing lor cos we thought the library closes at 8.30pm but luckily it closes at 9pm...though not much time left too so quickly find the books we need and settle for a short read thru' then went to the borrowing counter where both Dave and I borrowed 2 books each, all about dogs.

Once everything done then make our way to the exit...while on our way out saw my the other friend, Kent but he seems to be in a rush lor, left w/o saying hi or bye lor...sianz lor dunno why he "emo". Haix...aiya duno him la. Back to me with joel and dave...guess wad the three of us doing outside the library??? Cam-whoring LOL!!! But somehow it was something really enjoying...haha.

Good things seems to be coming in slowly lor...apart from these happy moments spent for the day, my day even ended with a surprise from another friend of mine, Dennis. He suddenly called me while I am shopping at Bugis with Joel and Dave asking if he could meet me...since we had no idea of wad to do next so agreed and arrange a place to meet.

Alright, enough of long entries liao....enjoy our cam~whoring pics bah!!! Lolzzz...

The only group pic : Joel - eSther - Dave

Our All-Time Favorite : Seafood Platter for 2 from Fish & Co.

Cam~whoring time...

That's all yeah...cya n tk care all.

Movies again...

2009-05-03T23:58:00.002+08:00

I was kinda of tired after clubbing yesterday and wanted to have some rest but shortly SMSes came in...from Bryan, Joel and lastly Dave asking if I wanna meet up with them over @ Bugis. I am fine with that so agreed to meet them all over there...

So there I am with Joel @ iLuma cos need to purchase the movie tickets for the 7.50pm show - "X-Men Origins: Wolverine (2009)" but bryan wont be able to join so those watching this movie with me will be Joel, Eric and Dave. Once I am done with the purchase of tickets then give a call to dave to ask where is he such that joel and i can go over to meet him...

There am I with the three of time shopping to kill time cos the time to the start of the movie is another 2 hours more to go...so shop from Bugis Junction then to iluma and over to Bugis Village where Joel grab some finger food before making our way back to iluma cos it's almost time for our movie to begin.

Synopsis : "X-Men Origins: Wolverine" tells the story of Wolverine's epically violent and romantic past, his complex relationship with Victor Creed, and the ominous Weapon X program. Along the way, Wolverine encounters many mutants, both familiar and new, including surprise appearances by several legends of the X-Men universe.

Not bad for the overall of this movie and plus the good sound system Film Garde has...definitely it's a plus to catch this movie over there. Thanks for the accompany to my friends all....

Emo me...

2009-04-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

Haix, boring day for me today lor...partly cos I have nothing to keep my busy except giving tuition at night and thus the whole of morning to afternoon I am idling at home doing nothing. Luckily I still have the taiwan idol drama "爱就宅一起" to keep me busy lor else really going to "Grow sPideRwEbs" le...

Besides watching that drama, I also had Joel and Bryan these two musketeers to entertain me with their lame jokes or else I really going to "emo" again lor...haix, cant wait to get myself a job really fast lor cos at least have things to keep me busy i wont be so bored n sianz lor.

Haix, just hope my work can come in really fast....

Family Dinner...

2009-04-28T22:51:00.002+08:00

Hmm, today dun feel like eating home cooked food so suggested to my mum if we could dine out today...actually I had the urge of eating steamboat but my poor sis whom haven't fully recovered from her chicken pox has alot of food that she cant take so in the end we decided to dine at "The Manhattan Fish Market" located off iLuma.

But this restaurant didn't leave me a gd impression...the service from the staff was not able to process my order and when I requested for some suggestions as what would be their best selling, they were not able to understand what I want....then next was the food quality. I ordered a "King Salmon Cajun" and a "Manhattan Fish & Chips"...not much of complain for the Manhattan Fish & Chips but for the Salmon it was not fresh as it has a fishy smell...

But glad the manager of the restaurant came to seek for feedback in terms of the food and the service...since he asked then I had no choice but to bring up the matter of that unfresh salmon fish to him and glad he gave me a very satisfied solution by changing that dish to another - "Baked Fish In Garden Herbs" which is so much better as compared to the salmon fish.

My mum was saying why am I so fussy and insisted on the change, cant i just stay with the salmon fish but then I argued with her why I am keeping strong to my rationale...that is since the food there is not up to standard of course have to ask for a change, after all we as customers patronizing the restaurant is there to have a good dinner...if simple get it off and eat such a sucky dish, I rather have my dinner at hawker centers where I know expectations are lower rather than in a restaurant where food is supposed to be of the right standard.

In the end cos was extremely satisfied with the change, I am thus enjoying my food without any further complains and thanks to my sis whom has the DBS Debit card thus was entitled a 20% discount off for the whole dinner...

Thanks loverboy...

2009-04-27T07:37:00.000+08:00

I am thankful to God for slowly taking away all the bad luck that was on me previously, leaving me only good luck & happiness staying by me forever ever since he came back...that was Dave, my loverboy. Ever since the day 24th March his return, there was a complete change in my life...not only having more colors into my life but also more chances of knowing what "HAPPINESS" is all about and how his return made a great impact on my life.

Like for today, my mood was somehow affected by this idiot that almost ruin the rest of my evening but glad that until ard 5pm plus received a sms from my loverboy asking where I am cos' I am supposed to meet him and his friend over @ TCC at 6pm, which took away that sadness from me, leaving only good n happy moments for the rest of the night.

After I finished my drink @ TCC, we all then left the place and head over to Heerens's Converse where dave gets the shoe he had been eyeing on...thereafter then went to the top level where he bought a pair of beautiful slippers for his sister. Once we are done, then left Heerens and proceed over to "The Soup Spoon" @ Paragon to have our dinner.

Our last shopping place would be back at PS where dave went to DAISO to get some things before we left to Clarke Quay where we will be meeting some of our friends there...the reason why I had to say a BIG "THANK YOU" to dave cos these two days he had been bringing me lots of fun, happy and enjoyable moments...it seems like we both went back to the first time when we first knew one another, that was really an unexplainable enjoyable experience we both share.

Thanks to them all....

2009-04-26T03:58:00.000+08:00

A boring Saturday afternoon cos nothing interesting happening but glad I made the right choice of going clubbing...initially I was abit disappointed cos the response I got back from some of my friends if they are going down to play was quite negative so i almost gave up going but glad i didnt...

The whole afternoon I was playing the Bejeweled in Facebook then around 7pm then get myself prepared and head down to my auntie's place @ Lavender to have dinner before heading down to PLAY. It was around 8.15pm I left the place and soon I reached the place within tat short 15mins and was like oh my, so early what am I gonna do sia? Then sms some of those whom is going to ask where are they and sad, they all are still on the way and probably will reach only at 9pm or after...

It was only around 9.10pm then I walk over to check out the queue there and glad that very soon dave and kelvin, together with xin kai and the rest have arrived so had them to join in the queue...the real fun finally came ard 11pm plus when it gets really high and one gd thing bout today is that none of us was badly drunk so all were dancing happily together, enjoying ourselves to the fullest.

Indeed tonight was the best clubbing night I had together with my group of friends...never been so enjoyable like today. Thanks to them all for making it possible...love em' all!!!

In Love...

2009-04-25T08:32:00.000+08:00

I am in love with this duet love song 《明天以后》by 林峰&泳儿...the lyrics very meaningful and the song very pleasing too. Below is the MV of this song..

Another song I am in love was 《下一個天亮》by 郭靜...this song was noticed while i was watching the "Campus Superstar 2009 Finale" which was sung by the contestant - 李奕贤. Below is the originl MV sung by 郭靜.

I am deeply in love with these two songs...

Great Day with family...

2009-04-22T21:42:00.005+08:00

Hmm, finally my sis can get out of the house and go for a short walk but didnt expect this short walk can cause my wallet a "BIG HOLE" lol...the reason was cos we both bought quite a few things from the short shopping from Bugis.

WE both first had lunch at the Temporary Food Centre and after we are done went over to Bugis Junction to shop around...it was when we were at bugis village then came across a ladies fashion shop where it sold alots of beautiful apparels...it thus caught our attention and brought us into it. The boss showed us a magazine of this particular brand from HK in which they look really nice on the models themselves and it happen 2 designs caught us both in favour thus decided to get for it...thereafter then went over to the other shop selling shoes and there I bought myself a $9.90 flats while the other heels was a gift from my sis...once we are done with all the purchase, we both then went over to iLuma to get the 7pm movie tickets for 3 cos we are having our mum to join us for the movie - 17 Again.

Thereafter then went back home to try out the new clothes that was bought previously and on the other hand was also packing some unwanted clothes...by the time we are done with the clearing and packing, it's time for dinner and thus had a quick one then left for the movies...today spent a total of $98 lor but alright now cos never had such a great time with my family liao so not much of complains lor...

I HATED IT...

2009-04-20T19:56:00.001+08:00

At times, I realized how useless I am and how bad things can all in one go came towards me...drifting away my smile & laughter, leaving me only with much hurt and pain. Things and human also starts to drift me further and further apart...all along I know such happenings would someone occur cos they dun belong to me rightfully and I also have no right to held up any of them all but didnt know all happen at one time, making me felt as though I became an empty shell overnight...

First was the loss of my permanent job...then next was a broken friendship....followed by loss of tuition assignments and the recent one was actually a fear of what might happen someday...so right now i am feeling damn useless and helpless, somehow thinking is it the END for me??? Why is GOD taking things away from me? First was my friends, then my career, then my love, then my finances and now even my last hope of my dearest and closest friend also gonna take away from me...why is this so? Is he telling me this is the price I have to pay for the exchange of my beautiful outer appearance??? If so, i rather I go back to my usual old self where I am just a normal person...I rather have ugly outer appearance but at least a happy me rather than now!!!

I wouldnt want all these things to leave me slowly....PLEASE GIVE THEM ALL BACK TO ME!!!

happy for him...

2009-04-20T07:53:00.001+08:00

yesterday night both me n him finally agreed to go clubbing after thinking for quite some time...it was kind of struggle for him especially cos he is afraid he will "emo" if he goes then wont get to enjoy but then I told him we shall see how lor, if really mood not right then shall leave...

in the end i was happy that he did had lotsa of fun but as for me NO cos of the glare from the club that was too strong for my eyes to take that in the midst of club, i somehow felt my eyes are getting very tired and seems to be closing at anytime. Actually wanted to leave first but cant left him alone there so accompanied him till almost 3am plus then share cab with him go back home...

but anyway besides that the reason why i say happy for him cos he had finally found his love after so long of wait...that was really a piece of good news for him ah cos he does deserved to be loved like many others whom is in the love of a relationship...wish him all da best ya!!!

the One & Only Pic that I liked among all....

It's really pain....

2009-04-16T23:33:00.000+08:00

Lasik surgery really sucks...in a way I PROMISED it will be my FIRST & LAST time I am going through this process. After the surgery ended yesterday, I really had difficulty opening my eyes as normal lor cos the part where the "flab" is being cut was so pain that it thus caused my eyes had difficulty opening and plus the tearing tat was continuous lor...

Apart from the tearing and the pain, my eyes was severely red especially on my right eye where the blood vessels of it got burst which was caused by the removing of the flab...in the end cant d anything but slept the whole afternoon yesterday lor. It was only until today then I can slightly open my eyes as normal but when there is too much glare or light to the eyes, the eyes had difficulty opening again...but at least it was better than the first day where I had the surgery...

NO MORE LASIK OR ANY OTHER SURGERY FROM THEN ON!!!

No more surgery!!!

2009-04-14T20:48:00.002+08:00

This afternoon had my mum to accompany me go over to SingLasik Centre @ SGH for my Lasik surgery which was scheduled at 12.45pm...I was not ready for this mini surgery at all and plus I am against this idea of having lasik to have perfect eye-sight but cos my mum insisted I should have such that I can save on contact lens thus no mater wad insist no matter wad I should have this lasik surgery.

I was really not prepared for the surgery cos heard from my sis the whole process only took less than 15mins so thought very soon it will be over but it didnt turn out to be lor...around 1.30pm I was asked by my consultant doctor-in-charge to go into the surgery room to get ready. Few minutes later after putting on the necessary dress-code, I was then asked to positioned on a bed under the operating microscope where the procedure will take place.

While in the process of the surgery, there were many times I experienced severe pain and discomfort in my eye especially during the first phase where severe pressure was exerted int the eye in cutting the flap...that was the time where the discomfort came and it WAS NOT TRUE when the doc say NO PAIN cos IT IS REALLY PAIN & HURTING. So pain until my eyeballs kept rolling which makes my doc kept telling me not to else it wont be corrected to perfect eyesight...I was like arrghhh, if not pain i wouldnt be rolling my eyeballs le how can dun ask me dun move!!!

But after 10mins, the difficult part is over cos next would be the lasik part but cos the previous one was too painful for me to take thus when it comes to the lasik, I was in severe pain until my eyes can hardly open that the doctor had to use the retainer to force open my eyes and prevent blinking for the lasik process to begin. The whole process finally ended after 15mins and thereafter I left the lasik suite to look for my mum.

It was really painful lor, in a way my eyes couldnt stay open and when comes in contact with glare I felt abit of discomfort and lots of tearing also...i was like WTF!!! Who says lasik surgery not painful where I had so much discomfort until I really had difficulty opening my eyes lor. I somehow regretted this decision I made somehow this saying comes true also..."要美不要命". I promised to myself this will be the ONE & ONLY LAST TIME I am going for such surgery!!!

out with friends...

2009-04-13T22:33:00.000+08:00

In the afternoon received a call from Dave asking me to go down to the coffeeshop to meet up with him and shortly once he and his friend is done with their lunch, we went over to iluma and then to Bugis Village to shop for awhile before the guys left towards Haji Lane for their shopping and me left for my tuition class @ kelantan.

Then after my tuition lesson ends received a sms from Dave asking if I wanna meet him to go to Tampines One the new shopping mall...since had nothing to do thus agreed to his request and went over to Lavender MRT to meet him. In the end did not managed to visit that new boutique - UNIQLO cos Dave was found missing thus I then left the place and took a train down to Orchard cos Dennis mentioned he wants to pass me my bday gift from both he and dezmond.

Just when i was about to reach Zara, Eiji called me to asked if i wanna join him over at bugis for a steamboat dinner...as I had nothing so agreed and told him to give me another 15mins while I go get my bday gift, meanwhile he can go shopping @ iluma with Aric too.

The shopping mall : Tampines 1

UNIQLO @ TAMPINES 1 :

Back to where I am...I met up with Dennis over @ ZARA to pick up my belated bday gift and cos I am in a rush to go over to bugis to meet Eiji & Aric so very quickly I left ZARA after thanking Dennis for the gift and took a bus down.
Belated Bday gift from Dezmond & Dennis :

Once I met up with Aric & Eiji, the three of us then make our way to the stretch of steamboat restaurants to check out the one we wanted but on the way there was this lady giving up flyer that there was a promotion going on for steamboat buffet @ this restaurant called - "金筷子火锅" only at $15 per person and there are more than 90 over varieties...thus decided to give a try since the lady say if the food not nice then it will be of Free-of-Charge!!!

There we are at "金筷子火锅" but after 30mins we were so pissed off with the food quality, the service from the staff there was like sux and the whole place full of LIARS lor...so angry that Aric couldnt take it any further and requested to have a word with the manager there else we are NOT going to leave the place.

In the end we really get to have a word with the manager and had things solved nicely for us, only thing we failed to do was to get those staff whom pissed us off failed to apologized personally to us all plus that stupid manager very protective against his workers there lor...anyway we didnt had a good meal and whole body in rage of anger lor.

Movie again...

2009-04-11T05:12:00.000+08:00

this evening was out with Eric again but it was pretty late when I met up with them cos wanted to take some rest so it was only till 12am plus then I went down to iluma @ Bugis to meet up with him and his friend, Marco and then head over to Level 5 to catch our movie - Knowing.

I was indeed impressed by Nicholas Cage...whom makes the movie as if it was so real. Igave 5 star rating for this movie. Totally impressed by it...after the movie, we all then took a cab down to T.P cos need to pass a bday gift to a friend whom shares the same birthay as me on the same day. Thanks to Eric whom helped me to locate him such that I can pass the gift to him at ease.
Thereafter, we all then took a cab down to Mustafa cos Eric wants to get something from there...that was really quick and our last stop was at MacDonald's to have our supper before heading back home.

Thanks loverboy...

2009-04-10T23:39:00.004+08:00

My whole day no mood cos got pissed off by my student whom cant even get a simple word like "FRIDAY" right...it was already an hour plus and yet still cant get it right into her mind, in the end really no choice but to give up and left else not she die but me first lor...

Luckily by afternoon someone gave me a surprise bday gift which makes my day a good one...it was my loverboy, dave whom came all the way from Tampines to pass me a bagful of bday gifts for me. That was really a big bagful and i was somehow shocked when I saw the big paperbag stating "AGNES B"...but what touches me more was the items he had bought for me, all that comes in handy for me.

My nicely wrapped bday gift :

The moment I unwrapped this large gift, I was touched till loss of words when I saw what's inside...a small bag from AGNES B, a photo frame that has me and him in it and a DKNY perfume set. All was what I have been hoping to get but didnt...

Seems like he understands me more than others do, knows what is best for me at the right time...haahaa. But I also appreciate those whom also had gifts for me cos all comes in really handy to me too...
The overall gift from loverboy :

Batam Trip...

2009-04-09T23:48:00.002+08:00

This afternoon was out with mum over to Chinatown to check out some promotions going on for 2D1N Batam trips...I arranged to meet up with her somewhere @ Chinatown but to think stupid me actually had difficulty finding my way from Raffles City MRT station to chinatown lor...in the end had to trouble my mum by asking her to wait for me outside OCBC centre.

After 30mins of search, I finally made my way to locate my mum and thus we both head down to South Bridge Road - a tour agency to check out the rates for 2D1N Batam Trip for 3 person...in the end we both managed to found one agency - Bestlink @ South Bridge Road that offers only $99 per person for 2D1N Batam Trip that includes 1 night stay at batam hotel and the next day will be sightseeing tour by the tour guide where there will be shopping and visiting of Batam recreational places...

In the end, we both decided on the lowest package of 2D1N tat includes a night stay for Day 1 and the other day the full day tour around Ngoya Hill for sightseeing and shopping entertainment...so that was final, our 2D1N Batam Trip to be set on the 9th & 10th of May.

Bday Celebration 09

2009-04-07T21:24:00.014+08:00

This shall be the overall post of all the bday celebrations I had for this year, being it as my 26th bday with all my good friends at different places...I was like Oh my, time passes so fast and I am already 26 but why things around me seems unchanged??? My looks dun convince pple I am of my age...at this age of mine I am still jobless and not yet achieved the goals I have set for myself to be accomplished before I turned 28....

Anyway I am really glad to those whom came for my bday celebrations, to those for preparing bday gifts for me, to those online greetings and to those whom fork out their busy schedule to come out with me to celebrate during the past four days...besides millions of thanks, i really dunno how can i express my heartfelt gratitude to them all.

I dunno how to express the happy moments I had with each and everyone of them so shall let the photos do the talking then....as there are 300 over photos so wanna c ah, sorry had to go facebook to see but if no facebook then i shall post some really nice pixs here then. Haha...

Thanks to all for the great moments shared... =)

A day with kids...

2009-04-03T18:02:00.007+08:00

As usual went for my tuition lesson over @ Bishan and bby the time it ended it was still early so i decided to drop by my cousin's place to pay a visit to my cousin's 2 kids - Zavier & Izaac, my favorite kids among all my cousin's children.

So there I am, playing like hell with the both of them...but today was somehow special unlike normal visits cos they seems to know it's my birthday on monday and thus they both prepared something special for me as a bday gift to me.

Both of them seems to be talented in drawing as they each draw my name together with some of their creativity, making it a special piece as a gift to me...thanks for their thoughtfulness, love em' both lots.

with zavier & izaac :

their creative drawings...

Their Bday gift to me :

Love them both lots...

I found myself BACK...

2009-04-03T00:08:00.003+08:00

Today evening had a good talk over a meetup with my closest friend...

In the conversation we both had, it was indeed great cos my friend seems to help me find back the "old" eSther whom I used to be...brought back the cheerful me again and bringing me back to REALITY as in to wake up from that "NIGHTMARE"!!!

I gave my that friend my promise that I wouldnt hurt myself anymore from then and that i will learn to love myself more than anybody does b'cos only then I deserved to be loved by others. I am really appreciative for the meaningful advices and the motivation from him that makes me walk out of the sadness and learning to live my life to the very fullest from then on.

The next upcoming things I am looking forward to would be the bday celebrations my friends had specially prepared for me...i guess it will be going on from the 4th all the way to the 6th, hope these few days I would make it a memorable and enjoyable bday for myself. So looking forward to....

I REALIZED!!!!

2009-04-01T23:52:00.001+08:00

Things haven't been going the way I want it to be...to a point i almost drive myself to depression but glad I managed to pull myself through, making myself stronger. I tried to put all the blame on myself thinking it has to be my fault if not things wouldn't have turned out this way...

I blame myself for being too sensitive, I blamed myself for not being a good friend to my friends, I blamed myself for everything...even though in the end it was not my fault, i still takes all the blame on myself which is something very stupid.

All these while I have been trying to give my best, putting as much effort as I can in whatever things i do be it towards my career, towards my friends and many more...in the end I lost my job, I lost some friends, lost my cheerful and happy-go-lucky character, lost the things I used to be interested in and worse, I LOST MYSELF...in a way I am just following what others are telling me somehow I LOST my sense of directions...

I want the cheerful and happy eSther back....i dun want to continue my life like this. IT JUST SUCKS!!!

Busy day...

2009-03-30T22:27:00.000+08:00

Whole day was at serangoon for the praying session that was held from morning till night..damn sleepy lor but back at home I still cant go to slp cos need to prepare those picture cards for my P1 student whom is having her Speech & Talk Story-Telling this coming friday...

The pic cards i have prepared :

Hope that with the help of these picture cards, it would be easier for her to read and tell just as smooth as she could to pass the exam...

It's 2am plus liao and I am still so alert lor...i was like OMG. If these were to go on lidat, my body sure cant take it one but no choice cos that is the medicine prescribed by my specialist and I had to wait till july then have appointment with him else i sure request for change of medicine lor...

Crazy for movies...

2009-03-29T04:33:00.004+08:00

As I only returned home around 4am plus after clubbing thus managed to get myself more slp until afternooon left for my tuition at Jalan Besar and then ard 4pm left my student's place and took bus 23 down to Tampines to meet up with Dave to return him his wallet that he had left with me ytd...Thereafter I den took the train down to Orchard cos meeting up with E.W aka Eric (whampoa) for movies at orchard today.

I first reached the place so went over to Lido Shaw to wait for him...glad he didnt kept me waited for too long and after he reached then left to a cafe near the CD Shop beside Shaw, had a cup of coffee each for both me and Eric and white wine for his friend, Sam. It was then around 7pm we both then left and head down to Orchard cineleisure cos the show - "The Unborn" we are watching will start in another 10mins.

Once he is done with the purchase of the snacks, we both then went in to the theatre waiting for the show to begin. Hmm, overall I didnt quite like this movie cos it wasn't that scary as it was and I still preferred the Thailand version as to that and the most hilarious thing was I was not scared off by the movie but by a gal whose voice was damn sharp lol...

After the movie, wanted to find some place in Paragon for dinner but in the end the idea was called off cos that Japanese Restaurant was fully packed and by the time it's our turn the last order is over so pointless for us to have dinner there. In the end took a bus down to Bugis where we check out the new theatre - "FilmGarde @ lluma Bugis shopping mall before having dinner at the coffeeshop downstairs my block. Hmm...eating at the coffeeshop is so much cheaper lor, just $10 can satisfy our hunger and plus the cheap $6 movie ticket that was on promotion.

Iluma :

Once dinner was settled, he went back with me to grab himself a jacket...just as when we both were trying to rest for awhile before going our movies when we realized the time stated on the movie ticket for "12 Rounds" was @ 10.10pm instead of 12.35am. We both was like, WTF sia...how come 2 "blurr sotong" never check for the tickets properly before leaving the counter???

In the end went back to the movie ticketing counter hoping to ask for a refund but was not able to thus had to purchase a new ticket cos the 10.10pm slot had far ended already...i was damn piss off with the kind of attitude that staff counter gave but cos Eric didnt wanna blow things up so we let it off. As we had bout' 30mins to the movie so stayed outside for some chat before going in...and glad "12 Rounds" was so much better as compared to "The Unborn" so in the end we both get over the incident tat happen just now.

After the movie, we both took a cab down to Mustafa Centre to do some night shopping cos he needs to get some stuff there...in the end it was only him whom did most of the purchase. He bought himself a bottle of perfume, some necessities, etc...and once we are done then went over to the MacDonald's over at Jalan Besar where he grabs himself some burger before we call the day an end.

Hmm, sounds great to have watched 2 movies in a row in a day but the funny thing I enjoyed most was while we both were at Mustafa Centre doing our shopping and the time where 2 "Blurr Sotongs" did not check properly for the movie schedule, LOL!

A great night...

2009-03-28T04:27:00.000+08:00

Nothing much special for the afternoon cos was basically going over to my student's place for the tuition lesson...it was only until late night when I get myself nicely prepared cos going over to meet dave and partying ourselves at club tonight.

I first went over to see how was the queue like but was lucky to get the chop from the staff there and then head over to 7-11 store to meet up with Dave and Adrian cos they both have something great for me...they both ordered a drink and had it mixed with some kind of alcoholic drink but chey...no kick lor cos I am still a strong drinker. Haha...

Thereafter we then went back to the club and the funny thing is poor dave and adrian had to pay for the entrance fee cos the free entry is already over....shortly I started seeing some familiar faces, like Andy, Philip and many more all in there enjoying themselves really to the fullest. Apart from the dancing, I had a few drinks treat here and there...they are either from friends like Philip, Andy, Jamal and some others whom I cant rem who they are lol but thanks to them anyway cos it somehow seems to take away all my sadness and indulge myself really happily with their accompany. I was also happy when awhile later saw Joebelle and Xavier in the club too and not forgetting drinks treat from them also...

But slowly I felt I was not able to hold my liquor any further cos i seems to be seeing "stars" all around me...guess it was too much for me to take cos in the end i ended up outside the club throwing up like hell. But despite the discomfort after the throw-up, I seems to forgo all the sadness and unhappiness aside and the cheerful me seems to be coming back.

Not forgetting my "cam-whoring"...I love each and everyone shot i took with all those that were present there that night. Thanks to them all whom brought back the jovial and cheerful eSther back. Love them lots....

My favorite Pic of the Night...

Glad he was there....

2009-03-27T07:59:00.000+08:00

The whole evening was like shit...supposed to meet up with him for a talk @ Taka Coffee Club at 7pm but cos I was held up at the clinic for my epilepsy thus I was late. As i was still in a confused state thus I didn't msg to inform him was late and then when we both met up, just sat there in silence...none wanted to speak up.

Few minutes later, he asked for the bill and then walk off just lidat...I was like WAT THE FUCK!!! Who was the one that said will only talk until he meet me and just cos I didnt inform i was late so i am in the wrong to make him walk off just like tat??? FINE then, if he thinks I am at fault so be it then...but somehow at that moment I dun feel gd inside cos I think tat was rude of him to walk off without saying anything...Fine, i then continued my drink for another round n shortly left Coffee Club.

I actually send him a few sms hoping he could return to meet me cos I really have some things to tell him plus i need to pass him his contact lens solution but despite how hard i tried, he find there is no need to do so thus i gave up...pass the thing to a friend of his and left the place. At tat moment, my mood was foul like shit...i wanted to look for someone to accompany but cant think of anyone and worse still, my hp went flat which obstructed me from calling/receiving sms or calls.

But I was somehow lucky...managed to found my ex-ITE schoolmate whom was working @ Cine Subway thus borrowed her phone and made a call to loverboy. Had a hard time convincing him that I am not sad cos didnt wanna make him worry but ask if he could come down accompany me to go chill out and relax. He didnt actually wanted to come out but dunno why, out of sudden he asked me to wait for him at Cineleisure there...

There he was, really came down to cine to look for me around 12am plus...i felt really happy seeing him and we both then check out the time for the movie - "Confessions of a Shopaholic" then bought a pair of tickets for the 1.40am show. As there were an hour plus more to the show, we both decided to go over to K-Box for some singing before going for the movies.

Guess we both were really lucky bah cos K-Box is having a "March Promotion" that is for member whom check in after 7pm will be around $13.50++ per person and plus today is Ladies Night so for the ladies will have 2 glass of drink, 1 inclusive of alcoholic and can sing till 6am. This promotions sounds really cool right...cos it is so much cheaper as the one I always frequent - "TOPONE" as my final bill for 2 is only $26.70 which is equivalent to one person without member @ TOPONE and even if at TOPONE were to use student price also not that cheap lor...
For $26.70 for 2 person, with 3 glass of drinks and tidbits too, plus one important factor is cos we need to catch a movie @ 1.40am later so we requested if we could put the room on hold and then return after our movie. To our surprise, the staff there agreed...

So we sang until 1.30am then left K-Box and head over to Level 9 of cine to watch the movie "Confessions of a Shopaholic"...that was really a nice movie and we both really enjoyed it lots. Once the movie ended, we return back to K-box and continued our singing until 6am then took the train back home.

I was really glad he came down to accompany me despite him feeling really tired...I truly appreciate this kind thought from him. Guess at times when I really need someone to be there, he is always the one...I felt so apologetic when I left him out some time for other people but was glad he had been there all these while....thanks to him, my loverboy.

Thanks for everything....

2009-03-25T01:42:00.002+08:00

It was a great day I had with him...first time I really enjoyed myself since the start of the year 2009. Because of some issues, my relationship with him drifted apart...b'cos of some problems we both almost lost this friendship but glad we managed to pick it up and had everything go back to what we both used to be...the moments of LoverGal & LoverBoy.

Apart from the happy moments we had while having lunch together, the jokes we shared while we were on our shopping spree and the enjoyable moments we had while we both were doing our favorite - "cam-whoring"...all these seems to have returned to the days when we both knew each other...felt so close and warmth inside each of us.

Through today's meet-up, it not only brings us back to what we both used to be and also brings back the happy & cheerful me and also the happy & jovial him...like wad he said :

"Dear lovergal i realise through today that all is not lost. We still click and enjoy each other company. Although we have all grown up and de-tour quite abit, but we still have a part of each other in our hearts. Its like true friendship can withstand the test of time. No matter wad happens true friends marks part of your memory and its for life. Glad to still have you around to make me smile.... Muacks."

I believed what he said was true...friends do walk in and out of each other's life and only true friendship can withstand the test of time. God gave me and him a test to see if we could withstand the time whereby there was this period of time we both didnt contact each other and again, God brought us both back together today to reminisce our past then again let us both have the chance to enjoy every happy moment spent together today.

Words really cant describe how happy and enjoying I am today but definitely not only his footsteps will stay inside me from then on, once again the joy & laughter we both had will follow me through always....

A great day...

2009-03-22T19:52:00.001+08:00

AS what was written in my horoscope, it seems so true...

"Those of you with care on the Arts should experience some nice successes today. Great time to embark on your vacation. Spend some time looking at your finance situation. Your family could provide you with much joy and laughter while sharing a meal together."

It indeed came true for today's horoscope reading lor cos around late evening I was with my aunt and together with my family, going over to Chinatown Hawker Centre to meet up with my auntie and uncle for our claypot rice dinner there...my mum ordered a big size and a small size claypot costing $25 for a total of 7 of us to share.

I said it was a joyous and happy dinner cos after we are done with the claypot rice meal, we all continue sitting down there happily chit-chatting...conversations like my auntie having problems taking care of her grand-daughter and what are the plans they have decided to come up with for her grand-daughter's coming birthday next month...there were alot of jokes and laughter said by individual of us lol and half-way thru', my mum also went with my sis to buy the durian "鸭母蛋" aka "汤圆" which has durian flavour in it that was advertised in the U-magazine...

The whole joyous night finally ended around 8pm where my uncle drove my aunt and his family back, while i left with my family by public transport since we are not in the same way with them...overall quite happy today lol. Glad i still have my family to stand by me, to cheer me up....love em' lots!!!

Thanks to myself..

2009-03-20T23:45:00.004+08:00

I am glad i had all my thoughts sorted out...cast aside all my sadness and unhappiness then take this time to really go achieve what I have always wanted to fulfill. For the past few days, i have been busy rushing here and there...either busy giving tuition to a few students through online assignments or rushing over to the Singapore Driving Centre to book myself a Basic Theory Test next month...

Basically, i am trying to indulge myself in as many activities as i can...my daily life since wednesday was in the afternoon going over to my P1 student's place for the 1.5hr of tuition lesson and thereafter taking a bus down to True Fitness spending almost 2 hours in my gym session...plus recently there were quite a number of events held over at Suntec & Expo so i will be seen at these 2 places recently...

Like yesterday @ Suntec after my gym session, I was with my family at the "Food & Beverage Fair 2009" and then for today after my tuition lesson, I was first at Expo for the "Asia Food & Consumer Fair 2009", then followed by the "Robinsons Expo 09" and lastly "Popular Sale Fair"...although today I was alone shopping at Expo but at least I am happy doing things I enjoy doing, like shopping for toiletries at the "Robinsons Expo 09" and also sourcing for assessments books for my P1 student over at the "Popular Sale". I called an end at the Expo at around 7pm and then went over to Tampines Mall to get the redemption on behalf of my auntie.

On my way there, I saw my cousin whom was at the SingTel Booth so went over to say "Hi" but didnt expect her to drag me to accompany her do some shopping over there...i was like "surprised" but somehow found it funny cos this cousin of mine never change....ever since i was young till now, whenever she sees me around she will definitely ask me to join her in shopping to give her some comments or advice in the things she want to get....now she already has her own family but still would do the same when she happen to caught me. That was somehow funny but really thoughtful of her...

I wrapped up today's shopping at around 8pm plus where i took bus 23 down to Selegie to meet up with my mum whom is at there fetching my sis after her part-time lessons then went over to the food court opposite to grab a bite before heading back home...I am glad i am starting to enjoy the kind of life I am having recently. Thanks to myself...

@ Suntec & Expo :

Total Damage : $53.30

Treasure!!!

2009-03-19T23:02:00.002+08:00

Today was suppose to meet up with my 2 gals to help one of them celebrate her birthday but in the end the meeting was canceled cos something bad happen to her family thus she was not able to meet us...this bad news of hers came to me from my the other sis that told me this gal's grandma had passed away in the morning thus most probably wont be able to meet us for her bday gathering in the evening.

Tat somehow enlightens me in a way....that is LIFE & DEATH is so UNPREDICTABLE!!! It is just a MATTER OF TIME...every human is brought to this world for a reason, but when his/her time ends it's time for his/her to LEAVE. When god wants to bring a person away, he have his reasons for doing so but reason to us, UNKNOWN!!! Same thing in real life...each and everyone is brought together for a reason, it could be as friends, it could be as family, it could be as lovers and it could also could be as enemies but the final choice still lies within our hands...whether to have more love or more hatred in OURSELVES!!!

After this news, i somehow decided to "let go" of tat "heavy stone" inside my heart...it's pointless for me to hold onto something that doesn't belong to me in the first place...or maybe i should say i should let "it" go off and really find the REAL MEANING in my life...to accomplished the things I have always wanted to and should fulfill and not harp onto something that does not belong to me...I have also learn to treasure the people worth me treasuring, the things I ought to achieve for myself and the kind of happiness i should have for myself.

My Fault ???

2009-03-18T21:42:00.002+08:00

There we are in "cold war" for almost 3 days...no sms no calls, NOTHING!!! But then came a sudden sms from him in the afternoon just after I am done giving my tuition lesson...the beginning few sms was still alright cos it's just out-of-concern sms but after the second sms, from his sms could see he has no "patience" in talking to me thus I got very pissed off and questioned him back.

For his info, that was the first sms he sent me after our "cold war" so what the hell he means by saying "talk to me recently" will vomit blood??? If talking to me really is so dificult, FINE....I am not forcing him to contact me since he had no patience in talking to me...but guess what he replied?

He starts claiming everything was my fault...like I am the cause of the misunderstanding he had with his friend, that ever since tat epilepsy attack i had I was not able to process wad pple say and the logical things to do then also cos of the way i say things that could easily lead to sour a rs of a couple...and DESPITE all these fault i made, I am still UNAWARE of wad my problem is!!!

After seeing the above sms content, i suddenly felt like SHIT!!! Never in my life have i felt myself like a total failure...never did I realized my words could be so "POWER" as to sour any relationship of the pple around me??? Neither did i knew i could so easily cause misunderstanding and quarrels among the pple around me...thanks to him I realized it now!!!

Awhile later, tears automatically rolled down my cheeks...i dunno why these sudden tears but for sure I am hurt badly. For my friends or those whom know me well should know it's never easy for me to shed a drop of tears but why now? How i hope there is a shoulder for me to cry on but who??? How i hope someone could offer me his/her patience listening ear but who??? That kind of feeling is really terrible...besides the heart being slashed, it somehow seems bleeding profusely inside me now...

Did i ruin the evening?

2009-03-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

Everything seems to be going alright until in the late evening when some things held me up thus made me really late for the meeting I had with him at suntec...it was almost coming to 8pm plus when we both finally met up but i guess it was really my fault that i spoil the whole evening cos the moment we met up, just head off for his dinner and then went back home..not a single conversation was going on between the both of us.

I admitted i was wrong that it took me so long to reach the place but was it really my fault? I did check with the bus driver if that bus could bring me over to Suntec and he said yes but cos tat was the only bus tat could bring me there so i just board it without knowing the long journey...

S.K?

2009-03-15T22:56:00.002+08:00

S.K aka Singaporean Kiasu??? LOL...

This is the type of life I live here in Singapore...whenever places like Suntec or Expo have Sale going on, you will see almost 95% Singaporeans in such places too. The recent "fever" is the first IT Fair of the year 2009, held for 4 days from the 12th March to the 15th March 2009 over at Suntec.

Actually the prices there are almost the same like those sold over at Sim Lim Square or other IT Electronics Store but dunno why crazy singaporeans just like to squeeze all in one just to be there to make sure they dun miss any CHEAP "lobangs"...

As for me, the reason I am there on this last day cos I had no choice as I need to purchase my epson printer ink cartridge else I will not be able to print out my documents that was needed urgently. There I am around 3pm plus with my sis squeezing with the "enormous" crowd there...hardly can get in and hardly can come out.

See!!! So many queuing to get in....

Total Damage : $46

FRIENDS???

2009-03-04T19:07:00.000+08:00

As we walk our path of life,
We meet people everyday.
Most are simply met by chance.
But, some are sent our way.
These become special friends
Whose bond we can't explain;
The ones who understand us
And share our joy and pain.

Their love contains no boundaries.
So, even we are apart.
Their presence enhances us
With a warmth felt in the heart.

This love becomes a passageway,
When even the miles disappear.
And so, these friends, God sends our way,
Remain forever near.

Friends are friends forever together 'till the end.
You promised me that you would always be my friend.
One day something changed I'm not sure what it was.
I lost you on that day and the reason was because
it was a late dark night and we had a stupid fight.
And for some reason, I don't know why, we couldn't make it right.
We went our separate ways.
This went on for days and days.
I made new friends and you made yours,
but that hole in my heart could not be filled for that hole was only yours.
Times got really tough,
my road of life was, oh, so rough.
I needed friends, not the kind you see from day to day,
but the kind that will always and forever stay.
Memories were all I had
and just the thought of them made me sad.
I cried every night wondering how to make it right.
I wish you could erase that day and that fight.
Would you please forgive me? I don't know where to start.
It hurts me so bad to have this hole in my heart!
I don't want our friendship to totally end.
I need you! You are my best friend!
So can we make a promise to stay together 'till the end?
A vow to each other to ALWAYS be BEST FRIENDS?

I haven't given much effort...

2009-03-04T18:44:00.004+08:00

"As we walk our path of life,
We meet people everyday.
Most are simply met by chance.
But, some are sent our way.
These become special friends
Whose bond we can't explain;
The ones who understand us
And share our joy and pain."

I guess if I have put in more effort in anything I do, things wouldn't have turn out like it is as of now...I guess if I have put aside my "EGO", find the right directions in what I want to achieve and prioritize what are the things I want in my life, I wouldn't be feeling so terrible as of now. I wouldn't be like now, feeling LOST and dunno where is the place I can rest my tired feets on...

In our everyday life, people walk in and out of a person's life but at the end of the day who are the ones that will stay for long, there is NO DEFINITE ANSWER!!! Only thing is to be true to one self, to be true to the people around you and giving the best of oneself to the others then will make one a worthy person-to-be.

How far can a person walk...sooner or later he/she will be tired out but would those footsteps again lead the person the right path of where the next destination gonna be, UNKNOWN!!!

i gonna die...

2009-02-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

erm, there isn't anything much for me for the day only until evening time when I met up with dez and wallace over at suntec in which we all going over to True Fitness for our one day trial today...actually my purpose there was to see wat is the difference between True Fitness and California Fitness but didnt know i felt so regretful after the whole session ended.

"THANKS" to Wallace for the "monster-training" lor...the moment i had changed into my gym attire, i am brought over to the treadmill and asked to do a 20-min running first. That was really tough cos it has been so long since I run liao so for a start like tat can make me die lor...after the treadmill, i am asked to do more cardio exercises lor without any stop sia. The whole workout finally came to an end around 10pm plus when we left individually to the shower room and by around 10.45pm we all finally left True Fitness, heading over to MacDonalds to grab some food.

After the meal, dez and i then left to take bus 857 back while wallace and xin kai left to the train station...the "crazy" monster-training for the day finally come to an end sia.

Movie Maniacs...

2009-02-05T01:44:00.004+08:00

Erm, why the term "Movie Maniacs" come about??? Simply cos this was what that has been keeping me busy for yesterday and today...busy catching movies one after another. Like yesterday, I was at home the whole of the morning and only left for home over to that "farking" place to help a friend picked up some things there...thereafter I went down to town to return a disc to my friend and then left to ZARA to look for dennis.

How the three of us met together was cos first i had to pass some things to dezmond so had to meet up with him in town, thereafter we all had nothing to do so both dez and i decided to catch a movie and ask if dennis wants to join us after his dinner...there were no obligations so then I went over to the grand cathay and purchase tickets. We all decided on "INKHEART" which was at 9.50pm so once i purchased the tickets i then return back home cos it was only 6pm plus when i am done...

So there are the three of us catching that movie - INKHEART over at The Grand Cathay @ 9.50pm after dez had his dinner at Paradiz Centre's MacDonalds...this movie was somehow interesting cos it depicts as below...

"Mortimer “Mo” Folchart (Brendan Fraser) and his 12-year-old daughter, Meggie (Eliza Hope Bennett), share a passion for books. What they also share is an extraordinary gift for bringing characters from books to life when they read aloud. But there is a danger: when a character is brought to life from a book, a real person disappears into its pages. On one of their trips to a secondhand book shop, Mo hears voices he hasn’t heard for years, and when he locates the book they’re coming from, it sends a shiver up his spine. It’s Inkheart, a book filled with illustrations of medieval castles and strange creatures—a book he’s been searching for since Meggie was three years old, when her mother, Resa (Sienna Guillory), vanished into its mystical world. But Mo’s plan to use the book to find and rescue Resa is thwarted when Capricorn (Andy Serkis), the evil villain of Inkheart, kidnaps Meggie and, discovering she has inherited her father’s gift, demands that she bring his most powerful ally to life—the Shadow. Determined to rescue his daughter and send the fictional characters back where they belong, Mo assembles a small group of friends and family—some from the real world, some from the pages of books—and embarks on a daring and perilous journey to set things right."

Hmm, how nice would it be if such a thing could happen in real life...I can make the person I hate disappear and bring my favorite character out from the book I like most...Haha.

The second movie we watched would be "THE CHANGELING", the one we have been wanting to watch since the release but cos we couldn't find time that can fit the three of us so tat was why waited till today then managed to watch it...

This is something different from the one we watched yesterday....this movie - Changeling is inspired by actual events that occured in 1920s-era Los Angeles which depicts as follows...

"The Changeling tells the story of a woman driven to confront a corrupted LAPD after her abducted son is retrieved and she begins to suspect that the boy returned to her is not the same boy she gave birth to. The year was 1928, and the setting a working-class suburb of Los Angeles. As Christine (Angelina Jolie) said goodbye to her son, Walter, and departed for work, she never anticipated that this was the day her life would be forever changed. Upon returning home, Christine was distressed to discover that Walter was nowhere to be found. Over the course of the following months, the desperate mother would launch a search that would ultimately prove fruitless. Yet just when it seemed that all hope was lost, a nine-year-old boy claiming to be Christine's son seemed to appear out of thin air. Overcome with emotions and uncertain how to face the authorities or the press, Christine invites the child to stay in her home despite knowing without a doubt that he is not her son. As much as Christine would like to accept the fact that her son has been returned to her, she cannot accept the injustice being pushed upon her and continues to challenge the Prohibition-era Los Angeles police force at every turn. As a result, Christine is slandered by the powers that be, and painted as an unfit mother. In this town, a woman who challenges the system is putting her life on the line, and as the situation grows desperate, the only person willing to aid her in her search is benevolent local activist Reverend Briegleb (John Malkovich)."

See, are we movie maniac? The funny thing is tml probably we will be catching another movie - "Benjamin Button" so shall see how later...if after my gym I am still "alive" maybe will go catch it. LOL!!!

I hate my life...

2009-02-04T23:13:00.000+08:00

Errrr..I am really sick of my current life now. WHY??? The reason simply cos I being a 26 year old adult is not able to make my own decisions in what I want for myself...everything seems to be in control by my mum and seems like we have to suit her style of living and accept whatever decisions or choices she made for us.

I am not trying to disobey but there were times I really hope she could let me handle my own things, allow me to make decisions on my own afterall she cant be with me 24-hour round the clock and she cant be making decisions for me all till i die, right?

The reason I am pissed off cos like recently, she is nagging on me to get a job asap and not idling around but the true fact is I have been sourcing for career opportunities and sending out so many resumes but till now there isn't any reply there is nothing i can do...worse of all, she keeps bugging me to get a stable job like my sis in which I am actually fine with that idea but the thing is she hopes i could get the same job as my sis even the pay was low. I was like WTH...hello after all i am a diploma holder and she is asking me to downgrade myself???

The second thing that pisses me off is bout' the Lasik operation...she insisted that I go for this lasik operation the same as my sis do such that i can save the money on contact lenses, spectacles and those solutions. These few days i have been giving thorough thought that I dun need the lasik operation as much as my sis did cos I am really fine with occasional wear of spectacles and contact lens which dun cost much actually...the reason why i dun wan to go for the lasik operation is cos i dun wish to spend that money which can actually be saved....

Haiz, i am totally feeling useless in myself lor...at this moment not being able to make my own decisions and everything seems to be in control...

To Diamond...

2009-02-01T13:28:00.003+08:00

Ya true that I am having misunderstandings with my best friend but that doesn't mean this friendship will just end like tat...to those childish taggers, U ALL JUST SUCKS!!! Just fuck off and leave my blog if you cant take that I have so many friends whom care and love me...

What is all this karma and all those bull-shit stuffs??? What goes around will go back so I advice you ALL better stop all these things or else in the end IT'S GONNA BE U ALL WHOM WILL BE ALONE & LONELY, NOT ME!!!

To the diamond(u know who u r)...I will apologise in a way that I didnt plan the thing yesterday nicely or else there wont be such misunderstandings arising but I hope we let bygones be bygones and deep inside u should know your importance to me...I never go around picking "stones" and neither have i ever let u lose your sparkle or ur value that you have in me. You should know very well we both have been through so much to what we are NOW so why let such a small thing ruin the "hard" effort we both had put in this friendsip??? We should be even stronger than before and not let such small things affect our friendship and show the rest no matter what, this bond between U & Me will go on and on...dun let those BASTARDS out there look down that bond of u and me so fragile cos it is NOT!!!

Once to all those FUCKERS...just leave my blog if U cant take I am being loved and liked by so many of my friends...

Another day out...

2009-01-30T23:52:00.003+08:00

It's another day out for me again today but somehow it seems better than yesterday, in a way today had more jokes and I had the chance to know a new friend plus a new product too...

My first half of the day was accompanying him returning to that "farking" place which I detest the most...it was only till 12pm plus we then took a cab and leave that place heading to our second destination somewhere near Upper Thomson Road. Thanks to him for bringing me over to this hawker centre somewhere near there which has cheap, reasonable and yummy food delicacies. For both our lunch, it was something much simpler than what we had with dennis over at Din Tai Fung and it only cost the both of us around $11 for something yummy and fillling.

The funny and hilarious thing came about while we were making our way to the place he was heading to...he was trying to find somewhere to smoke but cos there are parks around and such areas dun allow smoking so in the end the idea of smoking there was called off and we both ended up playing in the see-saw...funny thing was while playing that, the song "細水長流" popped through my mind and i started humming...but the most funny joke of the day was about me and him going one BIG round just to get into the building of JCU. I couldn't stop cursing and swearing at him when i knew had to go one big round and why i said funny cos i suggested climbing over the fence that can save us the trouble since i am in casual but that stupid dez say got webcam then scared later kenna caught, etc...in the end I GAVE UP and told him i wont acc him to that place after this visit EVER!!! But that was indeed something really funny, in a way tat we both can laugh until our stomach got cramp lol and almost drop onto the floor sia...

Our rest of the evening was spent over at NU SKIN located @ Level 10 of Park Mall Plaza, a new skincare product which was introduced by dezmond's friend - Audrey whereby we were there for a free facial trial. Together with us was dez's ex-classmate, Ivy from Laselle...at NU SKIN for the trial facial treatment. The whole thing finally ended around 8pm plus when we left the place without taking any products and then went over to P.S to meet up with audrey...

Our last stop and place of today was enjoying the drinks we brought over from Starbucks and then settling for a short conversation outside HMV before calling the day an end...it was indeed a long day for the both of us lor, esp me and dez whom had been out since early morning today.

Best pixs of the day....

A day in town...

2009-01-29T23:09:00.001+08:00

Today my whole day was out with dezmond...first was accompany him had lunch at Outram's Burger King before taking a cab down to town. When in town, we both just hang around Takashimaya and then upon hearing Dennis is back from his holiday then went over to ZARA to go look for him...

We both stayed over at ZARA for quite some time lor...both me n dezmond looking at the clothes and shoes they have over there. In the end he finally decided on buying the pair of turquiose color skinny jeans which cost only $29.90 which is on sale and thereafter left the place and went over to KINOKUNIYA bookstore while waiting for dennis to meet us for his lunch.

Over at kinokuniya while walking towards the chinese section...something hilarious took place. Just as we both were walking past the comic section, we suddenly smell something which smells like as if someone had just farted. The smell was so strong that both of us could really sense that it was like someone had really farted lol...we were so "taken in" by the smell which also got the both of us affected that the next thing we did was to cover our nose tightly and at the same time burst out into laughter lol. Dunno is we unlucky or wad but where got so right timing one??? The moment we enter Kinokuniya bookstore, the moment we have this special "aromatherapy" to welcome us sia??? Back in kinokuniya, stayed there for a while before going over to Din Tai Fung Restuarant to meet up with dennis for our tea meal...

The longest stay in town would be when we both were at the Starbucks cafe located off Pacific Plaza for a rest and some drinks there...the first round of drinks I had was Cafe Latte while he had Green Tea blended and the second round where we both had Flat White. I think it is cos we were eye-catching for good looking guys over there that made the stay there so long lor cos it was only after our last cup of Flat White, we both then decided to leave Starbucks and change to another new location instead lol.

Over at TANGS, I bought myself a DENNI watch costing me $29 but dezmond didn't get anything for himself...thus we both left TANGS and went over to Lucky Plaza's 7-Eleven to get some drinks while waiting for his friend, Audrey to come...it was coming to 11pm after accompanying Audrey to have her dinner at SUBWAY Cineleisure and thereafter we headed back home.

My new watch...

Day 3 of C.N.Y

2009-01-28T23:54:00.000+08:00

Today being the third day of CNY, there I am still going house visiting but on this day is all jie~meiz day..that is to say I will be celebrating this CNY festive with my 2 close sisters, Joy & Yuqing. But this year somehow is much different than the previous cos the first place of visiting is not over at my house but starts from the youngest among the three of us, which is from Joy's place then to Yuqing's and then finally mine...

Everything seems to be alright only after we all left my place while heading over to City Hall where Yuqing wants to check out some gifts for a classmate of hers...dunno for wad reason tat gal suddenly "emo" and kept walking on her own speed, so far apart from both me and joy lor and worse still...ask her what is the reason making her look so sad she didnt wanna reply back. In the end the rest of the evening was spoilt, in a way that the three of us simply just walked on our own and not even a single conversation in between but the poor person is my smallest sis - Joy whom got "sandwiched" in between me n yuqing...in order not to make the situation worse, I apologise to Joy and told her i shall make a move then or else later even worse then she will suffer more so there I left Marina Square.

Luckily clever me knows who to call and i was really lucky to be able to contact my sis whom told me she was also nearby but at "春到河畔" aka River Hongbao which is located at 新加坡滨海湾浮动舞台 (Marina Bay Floating Platform, Singapore) together with my cousin and his wife. So I then request my sis if she could come over to the bus-stop near Esplanade to pick me up, luckily she did...so there I am with my cousin and his wife, together with my sis taking photos of the beautiful lightings, etc...

@ "春到河畔" aka River Hongbao

After spending almost an hour plus over there, my cousin then drove us over back to my place where he treated me and my sis for our late dinner before driving us over to The Grand Cathay cos both my sis and I wanted to catch the movie "The Wedding Game" by Fann Wong & Christopher Lee...The movie was @ 11.45pm so while waiting for the movie to start, we both first had some drinks over at Starbucks cafe plus some cam-whoring over there lol...

Day 2 of C.N.Y

2009-01-27T23:05:00.004+08:00

Hmm, today is pretty much boring again cos it was only till 3pm plus then we started our house visiting but from then, all of us were gathered over at my cousin's place at Bishan and the reason I said bored cos the whole of today was spent nowhere except there...

Upon reaching there already saw a few groups in their games...one room where the adults play their mahjong while the other where the kids are playing the poker cards of BLACKJACK. As for me, the urge of playing blackjack hasn't really started so my first half of the time was spent playing the XBox game with my cousin's youngest son, whom is also my dearest - Zavier.

So over there besides eating, playing with zavier and chatting with my cousin then nothing else much liao cos i didnt realli wanna play the card games today...abit boring though lol. It was only till late evening when one of my auntie's relative whom we call him "空少" aka 机师 came, had him to start the blackjack game where he be the "banker". The reason why the children wanna play with him cos can place as high bets of up to $5 and can get the chance to win over his money lol...but in the end he is still the winner among all, winning a total of $38++ from those children.

Our last day of C.N.Y finally come to an end around 9pm plus after we had our steamboat dinner and thereafter I took bus 56 with my family and my auntie back home...two days of the festive season just ended like tat.

My family photo :

That's my CNY for the year 2009....

Day 1 of C.N.Y

2009-01-26T23:51:00.000+08:00

I woke up pretty early this morning and thanks to the early slp I had yesterday night, I felt more energetic and lively today...thus after I woke up get myself prepared asap cos going house visiting already.

The first place we went is the temple "玉皇殿" at somewhere near Beo Crescent...going to temple before the house visiting is a must cos we want to pray for good blessings in this new year of 2009...

Thereafter, we all then went over to a good friend's house of my mum and we were so honoured to have such a yummy Fried Oyster aka "蚝煎" upon reaching the place...thanks to mum's good friend husband whom was so good at cooking this dish.

We stayed there till around 1pm then left the place and went over to another temple @ Balestier to pray for blessings before going over to my uncle's place @ Buangkok.The stay at my auntie's place was short cos all rushing over to another auntie's place @ Lavender and had to leave together with my cousin, Derrick whom is driving us over and plus my third cousin's youngest son is rushing us to go over play cards that was why the hurry.

Over there, first had some steamboat and then soon the adults started their mahjong game for a while before starting the playing of cards...the whole place was so crowded with the kids' noise plus all the chatting from the adults, it was only till 7pm the place became abit quiet cos all was engrossed in the show "小娘惹大团员" but the noise came back around 8pm plus when all gathered in the kitchen for the "捞鱼生" then thereafter I left my auntie place around 8.45pm cos I am meeting a friend...

Pixs of the Day...

Eve of C.N.Y

2009-01-25T23:45:00.000+08:00

Haix, at the eve of Chinese New Year I am already starting to feel unwell but i guess it's cos of insufficient sleep thus this discomfort...the reason why insufficient sleep cos yesterday night was out catching the movie - "Bride Wars" with dezmond and thereafter i was busy dyeing my hair thus it took me almost till morning then able to catch my slp sia...

Luckily before joining my uncle and his family for our reunion dinner, I had about an hour's of slp so not so bad or else later my "gd friend" come find me I sure kenna from my uncle one lor...so by 6pm me and my family met up with my uncle and family over at "Kia Hiang Restaurant - 家香大酒楼" to have our reunion dinner...

The dinner was prompt and fast but disheartening cos the dinner wasn't up to standard...guess it's eve od CNY and there are many other families having their reunion dinner too so everything seems to be in a rush in terms of the preparation lor...but overall not much of complains la.

My cousin and family...

Some Random Dishes of our Reunion Dinner :

A good start for my Chinese New Year 2009.

Sad, Hurt, Lonely...

2009-01-23T18:56:00.002+08:00

This is exactly how I am feeling at this very moment...sad, hurt and lonely.

Sad cos of the news I had received from that farking place I went this morning...hurt cos in someway felt unfair treatment received plus that means I won't be receiving much for my January's salary...lonely cos when I tried to ask for accompany from my very good friends, they said they have not taken enough of their rest, they have things to do, all sorts of things until i felt so at loss....

OMG, is that what I really deserved???

I have been trying to be nice and good to everyone...be there for my friends when they needed me but when it's me whom need just a comforting shoulder for me to lean on, why is there no one and I had to be left alone to go through these down period myself???

A Day in J.B

2009-01-22T23:56:00.003+08:00

This afternoon went in to JB alone by myself to see if i could get something for my family for the coming festive season...by around 11am took the Express bus over to Woodlands Checkpoint and then as usual have my passport scan then return back to the bus tat brings me over to the new custom in J.B...

The new custom over at J.B is really big and luckily there wasn't any jam cos there was no queues at all so very fast I am done with the clearance but one thing bad is I will have to walk about 15mins from the new checkpoint to City Square shopping mall that will then allow me to take buses to Tebrau City - JUSCO.

The new J.B Checkpoint

I guess I am really clever in my ways lor...like being able to bring myself to JUSCO shopping mall even though I am not well-versed in malay language. I was able to board onto a bus that brings me over to JUSCO despite those bus attendants telling me that there is actually no bus lor and lucky me to have met a kind-hearted guy whom asked me just dropped RM$2 will do for the rest he had put in for me already...

There I am, alone doing my shopping in Tebrau City JUSCO...bought 2 B.U.M Equipment wallet, one for myself and the other for my sis. It was only till5pm plus then took a bus back to City Square where I had my "bruncher" of Chicken Chop with Rice meal over at Stonegrill Restaurant.

It was a long day spent over in J.B but glad I did bought some things back for myself and my family...

Great Day...

2009-01-19T23:23:00.002+08:00

this morning was awakened by calls and sms from both dezmond n yuqing lor, i was like sianz sia so early wake me up when i wanted to slp more lor...in the end had no choice but to take a cab down over to NYP to meet up with them. I had breakfast with them both together with yuqing's classmates over at south canteen then after finishing, then asked dezmond to drop us over at Tampines where I go there for my haircut since he is on his way to Pasir Ris via cab...

but it was only till 3pm, after our lunch over @ Tampines Mall's Pizza Hut with yuqing then we return back to the salon for my hair-cut cos previously my hairstylist was busy and had no time to slot me in....thereafter we both then returned back to Yio Chu Kang station via bus 72 where yuqing went back to nyp to meet her friend while i take the train back home.

i said today was a good day cos besides having them both to accompany me for breakfast back in nYp but also all the funny jokes cracked by me and yuqing such that we both have been laughing out like hell while we were at Tampines Mall lol...not forgetting to thanks yuqing for the yummy lunch she treated me at Pizza Hut too.

Haahaa...i believe the greatest moment is always possible with good friends to bring joy and laughter to you at anytime, anywhere...

Hell Shit....

2009-01-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

WTH....all I asked for is understanding and the moral support my family and friends could give me, the strength they could provide me to make me stronger but why am I still having such shit comments from them, especially my family???

At such a situation, I just felt whole of shit....just hope these bad times of mine could pass faster for me. I dun wan a bad start for this 2009 lor.

Glad they were around...

2009-01-15T23:56:00.000+08:00

My mood was badly affected after receiving that bad news...so bad that how I hope could find a place of no one else for me to cry out loud. Didn't feel like going back home, didn't feel like talking to anyone...just wanna be alone. Thus decided to take a cab back to place all those farking heavy things from that place back home first then go out on my own but had a sudden call from dezmond asking if i wanna meet him in town so agreed to it.

While waiting for him, I spent the time in Kinokuniya Book store doing some reading of astrology and tarot card books...it was only till 7pm plus then went over to meet dezmond. Initially there wasn't much conversation between me and him cos I dun feel like talking as he is a very "sharp" person and if i accidentally spill out anything, he sure to know something is wrong in me....but despite me being very careful in the end i spill out the beans and told him everything.

He was damn pissed off upon hearing my situation and actually insisted of helping me solve my prblem but i rejected his help and quickly mentioned of where to have for dinner, in diverting his attention...so then i managed to cast aside my problems and went to have a happy meal over at Parriss International Buffet Restaurant together with him.

From the moment he knew i was in bad mood, he has been trying to make me happy by telling me all sorts of funny jokes...glad it does help cos by the time we ended our dinner, I seems to have forgotten the bad day I had in the afternoon over at that farking place.

Another person whom did a great help in cheering me up was dennis, darling...he actually was not able to meet up with me cos he had a function that ends late but cos by the time my dinner ends, it's also around 10pm plus so asked where is he and if he wants to join me and dezmond for movies @ orchard cine....

In the end we were not able to catch any movies but thanks to dennis whom gave me and dezmond a treat over at Coffee Club and I really appreciated when dennis ordered my favorite - "Muddy Mud Pie" and I was indeed really happy when I had that dessert. Apart from the light bites we had, the conversations we had were enough to make me really forget all the worries that have been making me so terrible previously...thanks to the both of them.

Not forgetting a short quote that Dennis sent to me via sms which will make me remember in heart forever...

“The road to success is not straight.
There is a curve called Failure,
A loop called Confusion,
Speed bumps called Friends,
Red lights called Enemies,
Caution lights called Family.
You will have flats called Jobs.
But, if you have a spare called Determination,
An engine called Perseverance,
Insurance called Faith,
You will make it to a place called Success.”

FaRk em...

2009-01-15T21:52:00.001+08:00

As informed earlier by my supervisor I am having a meeting wth the HR staff and the other supervisor of mine today...with regards to this meetup, I am more or else well prepared cos I already knew what will gonna come for today after having my tarot cards read yesterday night, It's definitely not something good but I didnt knew it could be that bad...not to say my accurate online astrology reading which always turn out 100% accurate when it talks about something bad.

"Nothing is going to get you to the finish line but your determined, headstrong gumption. Rely on your greatest strengths because with no friends at your side, it's really all a loser can do."

ITE - It's The End...everything came so sudden, just like a strike of lighting across me until I am at loss. All I knew it was my blog that got me into trouble cos of some of the posts that I mentioned which was enough for them to accuse me of illegal acts...but ti still puzzles me cos from what i know blog is something very personal and I am 100% sure that all these while my blog wasn't really open to public which means only my good friend is able to access then only after the second week of this month I was then allowed public access so when I had a shock upon seeing the stack of printed entries taken from my blog...

Haix, since it's already over I dun wish to mention anymore but for sure I will remember this day - 15th January 2009, the reason why I was being given such attitude and treatment from that company.

sianz, sianz...

2009-01-13T21:45:00.000+08:00

today still on M.C cos of the viral infection that is in my body causing the fever yet to go down after so many days...but poor me even though on MC still not able to stay at home and rest cos my mum always dun believe I am really sick and thought I am just finding excuses of not going to work....haix, forever cant get their understanding when it comes to such situations.

but luckily around afternoon time, dezmond came over to bugis to accompany me for lunch before i find programmes for the rest of my day...but what fustrates me is that I am not being able to rest despite me feeling sick is already a torture to me liao plus the day is passing so slowly until I almost bored to death lor, aiyo!!!

A Date with LoverBoy

2009-01-12T21:08:00.003+08:00

hmm, both Dave and I still in his birthday mood lor so there we both are...meeting up over in town for another round of enjoyable moments together. We both actually agreed to meet in the afternoon but dunno wad reason dragged until evening time then finally met up with each other over at Plaza Singapura.

after a simple dinner @ Kopitiam Food Court, we then head over to Secret Recipe cos of our sudden desire for desserts...it took us quite some time then finally decided on the dessert - Chocolate Banana to share between the both of us. It was almost coming to 8pm plus when we are done with our dessert then walked around from P.S down to Orchard Cine.

we ended our date after catching the movie - "The Women" at orchard cine...

today was again another good moment spent with him...somehow our relationship seems closer than before lor, which is a good sign for a new year 2009.

Both of us with the Chocolate Banana :

Movie - The Women :

Dave's Bday Celebration...

2009-01-10T23:53:00.019+08:00

Today is my best friend - Dave's Birthday...I almost screwed up his day today but glad everything turned out great and guess all of us did had an enjoyable moment with him today, be it the yummy dinner we all at Fish & Co and the part we had at PLAY.

I said I almost had the day screwed up cos I really cant afford to get the gift dave wanted badly, i hope to seek his understanding but there cos of tat he was really upset and disappointed. Thus, I felt so ashamed to see him that I decided not to be around for his bday celebration and I am not fit to be his best of friend thus won't see him anymore....In the end, we both gave in to each other and guess our friendship bond were too strong to break off just like tat that we had this sad moment cleared up and I agreed to meet him for dinner together with other of our friends like Wallace, Eric, Adrian & Xin Kai over at Fish & Co later.

My accurate horoscope got things right again....

"You may be feeling kindhearted and happy today as everyone greets you with a smile. Spend your leisure time celebrating with friends with dinner at a gourmet restaurant or dancing at a club."

Thereafter dinner, we all then hang around in town for awhile before going to club...i was actually sick still from the viral infection but no choice since it's best friends' birthday and the birthday person already insisted me be there so had to fulfill this request of him lor.

Shall let the photos express the endless fun we all had for the day....

@ Fish & Co.

Birthday b0y with frenz...

eSther with the gUys...

£oV3rGa£ with £oVerBoY...

All of us had a great day today...credits goes to the birthday boy for sure lol.

Back to work...

2009-01-08T23:16:00.002+08:00

Today I am finally back for my work again...but then I was not able to complete any simple task except those data entry cos of my short-term memory loss that is affecting my work. I was early in the office at around 8.20am then went over to clinic d to look for my colleague in collating the data for the data entry and then returning back to Level 5.

Work was difficult cos i can't remember which was the last entry I stopped before I went for my long holiday and a few of my login passwords I was not able to recall either...worse of all later in the evening I felt a sudden "heatiness" in my body, just like the whole body burning so decided to go over to the company's clinic to see the doctor.

Based on the doctor's diagnosis, I am still running a high fever and for precaution it's best for me to go back home to rest or else later the epilepsy attack occurs again...so he had me covered for 2 days, which is today and tml. Thus the moment i returned back to the office, I tried to complete the important tasks on hand then by 5.20pm pass the M.C to my female supervisor to inform her of my current situation then take my stuff and left the work p[ace heading back home.

There I am, will be staying at home till sunday trying to take as much rest as I could and hope by saturday my health would have been better else won't be able to attend my best friend's birthday party this coming saturday liao...

Speedy Recovery...

2009-01-07T22:55:00.001+08:00

erm, my two days of MC is only until tml but cos my male supervisor is afraid my health condition hasn't improved and afraid there will be another relapse of my epilepsy so he suggested me to take one day leave for today to rest at home till I have completely recovered.

but then I had to leave my house early cos my mum didnt know of the attack that i had over the weekend and didnt is she aware that the doctor had covered me for 2 days M.C plus the leave I took today so around 9am plus I am already out of my house, taking a bus down to NYP to meet up with Yuqing whom can accompany me...

there i am in school having yuqing to accompany me and plus luckily she brought along the Hong Kong drama - "搜神传" for the both of us to kill time or else really dunno how sia...so there are the both of us watching that drama until 6pm then left for home.

haix, thinking of going back to work tml @ that sickening place makes me sianz again lor...

Severely Sick...

2009-01-06T22:23:00.001+08:00

oh my, oh my...thanks to the epilepsy attack I had yesterday which caused me not only temporary memory loss but also severe pain in the tongue cos I accidentally bit it during the attack...the cause of this sudden attack was cos the lack of sleep and plus the viral infection that caused me to have a high fever of 38.9°C.

thanks to dezmond whom was around or else my life could have been lost lor...but poor him whose finger-nails got bitten off a little by me...apart from that, it was very nice of him to ask his friend to drive me over to Silver Cross Clinic Serangoon to see the doctor cos based on my current situation tat time, I am not in anyway to go to the doctor myself.

there the doctor told me it was due to viral infection and high fever, thus asking do I wanna go A & E if so he can write me a memo to refer me over but i declined that suggestion cos I am sure DEAD if these news were to go to my mum so no matter what, i just requested the doctor to give me a 2-days M.C to rest at home and if it is still so bad then I will go to the A & E.

thanks to dezmond, i didnt lost my life but hope full recovery for me cos partial memory loss is affecting me from working either....

b0ring...

2009-01-03T12:13:00.002+08:00

haix, the next two days I gonna do everything on my own liao cos my mum and sis went on a short trip to KL together with my aunt and uncle...only be back tml. It seems that I am having a long holiday but yet I dunno how to spend it which is so sickening lor...staying at home will only drive me crazy faster sia.

recently some problems caught me till a point i dunno am I able to search for the correct answers??? I tried to rely on my "直觉" to see if I have the right answer and also tried to convince myself there couldnt be so many "巧合" until I should just take whatever that comes ah....

God, please show me the right route to searching for the RIGHT person and not the RIGHT TIME but not the RIGHT person, please!!!

A good 2008 wrap-up...

2009-01-01T12:20:00.012+08:00

I broke my own promise, ignore the horoscope analysis and went ahead to maxwell to party together with all my friends there for the New Year Countdown 2009. I was glad I was there with them cos like last week's X'mas celebration, I was "high" and really enjoying myself especially when the countdown begins...

After the countdown, the party then really started but it was only till 1am plus then i got myself "high" and credits to dave's friend whom treated me to this drink tat makes me not only got K.O in the next 1min and also very, very high lol. One thing for sure was yesterday night I really enjoyed myself dancing, cam-whoring and drinking...everything to my fullest. Really didnt regret the decision of going there to party with them all.

Shall let the photos describe how much fun I had...

me with Eric-->

me with the gUys-->

eSth3r with l0verBoy-->

Flashbacks of 2008

2008-12-31T15:41:00.004+08:00

Few more hours marks the end of 2008 and into a new year of 2009....

Hahaha...if were to ask me to say how was 2008 for me, I guess i would be at loss of words cos too many things had taken place until I dunno was it really good but one thing worth mentioning would be the trips I made to K.L with friends that again widen my circle of friends...

Friends : They come and go...walk in and out of my life...like a closest friend of mine, I almost lost him cos of some misunderstandings but glad our bonds were strong to keep it moving on still till now. Then was 2 new friends I know during my first trip to KL and it was the subsequent trips over to KL that makes my friendship with him(Eric) somehow closer...the third person was another friend whom I get to know sometime in June. Through these new experiences I had with this new friends I know, somehow it makes me a better and stronger person..lesser sad days but having my life living to the fullest. Hope this new footprints would stay together with the old ones and wont be washed away from my life...

Education : Finally with my strong determination and perseverance, I managed to complete my 3 years course of study in Nanyang Polytechnic. The grades were not fascinating and neither were they excellent but guess I am contented I am able to graduate successfully with a Diploma cert. At least I am able to prove to myself and my mum that I am able to complete my 3 years of studies despite so many problems befalling on me....

Career : Finding a career that suits my personality most is not that easy...I have been searching for jobs that are more active, something like Customer Service or Events Management but found nothing after the 2 months of search. I am not those that can sit stationed at the desk, facing the PC so desk-bound jobs are something I wont put into consideration but then I started having severe quarrels with my mum in finding jobs...the cause of the quarrel was my mum didnt wish to see me continue idling around at home and not working so insisted that the latest by November I have to find myself a job. In the end had no choice but to settle for Senior Admin Assistant in tat farking place, actually that wasn't the position I applied for but cos the one i applied - Patient Service Associate has no more vacancies so no choice but to take that. But then problems starts coming after December making me really stress at work...

Last but not least, Relationship : That 'someone' did appear but it was only for a short period of time...the relationship didn't turned out well cos I wasn't ready for relationship at that time "he" appear as my commitments were all focused on my studies, hoping to get myself graduated most importantly and plus both our characters did not click so had to let "him" go...

There are good and bad for me in the year 2008 but I believe in one saying : "老天把一扇门给关了，他会给你留一扇窗户的，只要我们身体健康，大脑还没有失去控制的话，我们相信上天不会让我们走上绝路的，相信自己，这只不过是时间而已，有了时间，我们可以从头再来，人活这一辈子，就是要向海水一样，有大起，就有大落，这样的人生才是活得精彩。一个平静的海面不会让人去更长时间的去欣赏它的澎湃。"

Just hope all the best for me in terms of career, friendship and relationship for the coming 2009 and that good luck stays with me for the whole of 2009 and forever.

FLASHBACKS of 2007

No party, no countdown!!!

2008-12-31T15:25:00.002+08:00

Today went to work as usual and n matter how much I dun like this job of mine, I still have to bear with it all and just hope time passes off fast such tat I can go back home immediately...but things always dun seem to go the way I want it to be lor

Like from morning to 1pm, had nothing to do at work but can't go anyway cos my supervisor is in the same room as me...then had to pretend to find things related to my work to read and cant do other things non-related to work. Damn sianz lor...plus dunno why today also dun mood for anything, even for celebration.

Sometimes find my astrology analysis really true sia!!! Like for this morning when I was reading through my daily horoscope analysis, there was this reading that says :

"This day does not bode well for you as you may end up on the wrong side of a scam. Consider staying home tonight and watching the festivities on television in the company of family and your closest friends, making it a true family celebration"

Cos of this reading, somehow my mood got abit affected..then after a short while of thinking, decided that for today I shall stay at home and not go anywhere...i think the reason my mood got affected was cos of the stress i am facing over at work and plus some other factors which doesn't seems to be going smoothly for me until I feel like giving up in everything...haix, didnt expect my last day of 2008 to be so bad!!!

w0nd3rFuL X'mas Time...Ho Ho Ho!!!

2008-12-25T08:52:00.001+08:00

it was a last minute decision of going over to PLAY to party for X'mas and glad most of my friends were all there...like Dave, William, Vincent, Eric, Dennis, many many more all over there ppartying to our fullest together.

while partying, both dave and I really had lotsa of fun lor cos we both had 6 tequila shots in one go...each had 6 shots plus other alcoholic drinks getting ourselves really "high", we all had lots of cam whoring too but all the photos still inside Dennis's camera and he busy working so didnt managed to get those pics from them. =(

luckily overall all of us had a good time spent together for the x'mas night so love my friends all for making it an enjoyable night for us all....

Fuck em' all...

2008-12-23T21:39:00.001+08:00

My mood for x'mas was badly affected by the stupid people from that stupid place, so badly until I dun feel like attending the mini x'mas party that was held at Level 5.

In the morning I was late for work but didn't know I so unlucky to have bumped tat "person-in-blue" up there lor...the first thing she saw me was to ask what time am I suppose to report and why am I late??? I stayed calm and replied back saying I was away to get the last minute x'mas gift meant for the party later...she had nothing to said about me thus remained quiet. Shortly, she speaks up again telling me that I had to move my desktop PC from Level 1 to Level 5 A.S.A.P, if best get it done by today. This request of hers is definitely not possible cos my PC have been attacked by a virus thus it won't be able to login to Windows so might need the IT technician to do a diagnostic check for me...

The reason that makes me so piss~ed off was the stupid attitude they gave me and thinking I am trying to find excuses of not moving up...in some way I felt offended by the kind of comments they said about me. Tat stupid "old-lady" dunno anything about IT still wanna doubt me when I told her I am waiting for the IT Technician to come over to do the diagnostic check for me...moreover even said that I am just finding excuses to stall time for not going up. I was like "shOo-off" if you dunno what is the actual problem I am facing in the PC...dun create even more problems when my main problem is yet to be solved. AND for g00dneSS sake, dun talk all sorts of rubbish as if they are really tat way...if orders come to me that I have to go up to Renal Unit, would I dare to defy the ORDERS???

In the end, I had to dismantle the desktop PC and pushed them all up to level 5 via a trolley all by myself and the SHIT thing is just when I was about to leave the place, that stupid "OL" called to asked me to place my PC there for the IT guy to come over for the check. I was like WTF!!! 1 min ago, she was doubting my words but at the same time asked me to bring up the PC ASAP but another min was telling me to leave everything there...WTH & WTF they doing ah???

My whole mood was spoilt by them both lor...so angry but still have to bear with all those shit from them. In the end no choice but to move up the PC all by myself up there and while arranging my desk-area, I was asked by a few of my colleagues to grab some bite from the buffet but guess how I react to their invite???

I told each of those whom invited me over for the buffet that I am not eating and in the end I somehow had "social withdrawal" from the rest lor...didnt feel like participating in the party at all!!! Even I do had x'mas gifts from the others and the yummy food laid out nicely, I just dun have the mood for celebration anymore...

The food that failed to cheer my mood...

My X'mas Gifts...

冬至的到临

2008-12-21T20:27:00.002+08:00

冬至 a.k.a The winter solstice is today and many chinese family will be busy preparing many dishes and not forgetting the most important - "汤圆" which is a must...Below is a short introduction of this festive 冬至 :

"冬至是北半球全年中白天最短、黑夜最长的一天，过了冬至，白天就会一天天变长。古人对冬至的说法是：阴极之至，阳气始生，日南至，日短之至，日影长之至，故曰“冬至”。冬至过后，各地气候都进入一个最寒冷的阶段，也就是人们常说的“进九”，我国民间有“冷在三九，热在三伏”的说法。"

"吃汤圆也是冬至的传统习俗，在江南尤为盛行。“汤圆”是冬至必备的食品，是一种用糯米粉制成的圆形甜品，“圆”意味着“团圆”“圆满”，冬至吃汤圆又叫“ 冬至团”。民间有“吃了汤圆大一岁”之说。冬至团可以用来祭祖，也可用于互赠亲朋。

冬节甜丸一般在天亮前煮熟，家人起床后，都要吃一碗“冬节丸”，潮汕有“冬节丸，一食就过年”的民谚，俗称“添岁”，表示年虽还没有过，但大家已加了一岁。每年到了冬至这一天，夜的时间最长，冬至过后，才逐渐变短。昔时潮汕城乡在冬至日还有以甜糯米丸拜“司令公”，备三牲祭祖和扫墓的习俗，冬至扫墓叫“过冬纸”。

For my family, it is much simpler...no big feast but only the 汤圆 which is a must to pray my ancestors, that's all. But we were lucky cos every year's 冬至, my auntie n uncle sure will prepare lots of yummy dishes so we of course got benefit cos they will bring some for us...yummy yummy food.

A good day???

2008-12-20T23:18:00.003+08:00

This afternoon was indeed a good one for a day to start...reason is cos I was out with a primary school mate of mine whom I haven't seen for years but glad that we both managed to see each other few days back while I was shopping in orchard thus arranged for today's meetup.

So there I am with my primary school's best mate - Jiadi @ chinatown's K-Box for a k-lunch singing session since it's both our favorite. Hmm, the feeling of meeting up with a long lost friend is really unique n great but somehow I felt so strange when the name "Meiting" was called...it has been so long since this name has been called lor cos after my secondary school life all my friends have been calling me "Esther" so when I heard "Meiting", I felt like a stranger to it lor.

Back to our KTV session, it is damn cheap sia...cost us only $13 each which includes a set meal with a free drink plus 4-hour session. Haahaa, cheap right??? The singing finally ended at 3pm but cos my friend had to went back home so we both went separate ways where she left to take her bus where I left to meet my mum and sis. I then left for home together with them after i bought my food...

Back at home started surfing the internet until late evening around 7pm then left with my mum and sis go over to my auntie's place for dinner...everything seems alright until few minutes later cos of a small conflict, it burst out into quarrel i had with a friend that my mood got affected. Somehow gonna burst into tears when i saw those words from him...haix, guess my remaining days of the year 2008 would be a bad one.

I am FREE!!!

2008-12-19T22:21:00.002+08:00

Yipee, my supervisor will be on LONG leave from today till the 28th so that means during this period of time I won't be under anyone's supervision and I am free to do anything on my own lor, haahaa. There indeed I am enjoying myself like for this morning...as usual did not reach office only until 10.30am then once at the office, gets connected to the internet and started searching for the songs from the movie, Twilight.

It was only till 11am plus I then left my office to go over to KRW 2 building to meet up with dezmond whom had an appointment with one of the specialist doctor there...like i say, since nobody supervising me so I am free to go anyway, do anything I want. Thus accompanied him to see the doctor then then once done, brought him over to Dental clinic cos he wants to have some dental check done...once appointment to see the doctor later @ 2pm had been arranged, we then return back to the office and placed the diary he gave me then went for lunch @ the staff canteen...

After lunch then accompanied him back to the dental centre for his appointment...actually I am alright to stay with him till he finishes everything but cos in between he said something unpleasant that upsets me a little tat pisses me off such that I walked away in anger, back to my office leaving him there alone....i am back assisting one of the nurse coordinator in doing some data entry which keeps me busy till ard 5.10pm then packed my stuffs and left in a cab down to orchard to meet up with my sis.

See, without my supervisor ard...I am able to be so carefree, like doing nothing and some more can get to leave so early which was so shiok sia. Haha....

Big Shopping Day...

2008-12-19T01:49:00.002+08:00

I love the day whenever I gets my pay cos not only I can see 4-digit $$$ inside my bank account, I can also shop till I drop like today...really enjoyed myself while doing my shopping over in town together with my sis.

I left my work place pretty much early then usual cos it's only 6.15pm when I met up with my sis over @ lucky plaza. The first place we both went was over to the perfume shop at Lucky Plaza, the one I always patronize....so frequent until I became their R.C aka "Regular Customer" that they know what are my favorite preference and most importantly got discount from one of the staff I know there. Thanks to her recommendation, I managed to purchase the "Midnight Fantasy" by Britney Spears @ only $59 which in departmental store for the same 100ml would have cost me $113. That fragrance was really love at first sight...worth purchase sia!!!

Midnight Fantasy

After buying the perfume, we both then go over to TANGS to see if I can find my friend Melissa whom is working @ Shu Umera but disappointed cos didnt get to see so after buying my M.A.C Plushglass - "Full For U" we left. This is the lipgloss in which I have been aiming for so long but didnt get to buy it cos it's too expensive and since today got my pay so no matter wad must purchase that...haha, another $34 gone!!! LOL...
MAC Full For You Plushglass :

After so, went over to Wheelock's ZARA to start our next shopping spree but over there I again didn't managed to purchase any thing except my sis whom bought herself a $19.90 top...thereafter then went over to ESPRIT where our second destination of shopping started again. Luckily over there saw a friend of mine so with her staff price, I am entitled to 40% discount so bought myself a top and a perfume that cost me $43 in total after the discount...haha, clever me right?
My Overall Purchase :

Once all shopping is done, it's time to settle our dinner so after looking at the different food the restaurants @ Wheelock provides, we both decided on Big O Cafe & Restaurant..something we both never had before. Our menu for dinner is as follows : -

1. Crispy Fried Calamari
2. Pan Seared Sirloin Steak
3. Crispy Fried Fish & Chips

I think this is the first time we both really enjoy ourselves bah, indulging in good and yummy food like today...from the photos can see how happy we both are lor.

After we had our dinner, we both hurried down to Orchard Cineleisure hoping to get ourselves in time for the 10pm movie - Twilight but cos by then we reached Level 5 to make the purchase, the staff told us the movie had started 15mins ago already but told us there will be another slot at 10.25pm so without 2nd thought, I paid for the 2 movie tickets then went down to CHEERS to get some drinks before returning to the theatre for the movie.

The whole movie was indeed great as what the internet review had mentioned and the main actor in the movie - Robert Pattinson was really a cute and handsome guy, LOL!!! After we left cineleisure then took a cab home cos there is no more buses available liao...
TWILIGHT :

TOTAL DAMAGE : $300+ :(

Upcoming Events...

2008-12-17T09:47:00.003+08:00

Yesterday had a short department meeting with my supervisor and colleagues with regards to the upcoming events that will be held for our department. The meeting started around 2.15pm where all were gathered together, then first discussion was on the New Year Party 09' which is scheduled on the 11th Jan 2009 on a Sunday afternoon.

The discussion was on planning for the food catering, the duration on how long the party should take and what are the interesting games to think of, etc...there were few lame jokes told by some of the collegues which didnt make the meeting tat boring but the only topic that makes me look forward to would be next week's X'mas Party at the R.U which is on the 23rd Dec. For next week's party, each staff is to come along with a x'mas gift of $10-$15 for the xchange of gifts and other games for the party...

Hmm, so tat means I have to go and source for x'mas gifts for the exchange already lor...in the end after my work yesterday I went down to town to see if i could find something for the x'change gift but after walking around town for almost an hour, i still cant find anything presentable...in the end left Tangs, Wisma Atria and Takashimaya empty-handed n worse still my migraine giving me a hard time. =(

I then left town after waiting for vincent to knock off where they both accompanied me over to Dhoby Ghaut where he n william to the NE train to hougang while I took bus 175 back home...actually thought of buying dinner back but in the end a friend of me piicked me up from my place and had dinner with him over @ Mustafa area...we all shopped there till almost 1am then thereafter send me back home. It was a long day for today but glad there were a few upcoming things for me to look forward to...

~ 18th Dec (Pay Day)
~19th Dec (Shopping Day)
~ 23rd Dec (Company X'as Celebration)
~25th Dec (X'mas)

Haha, work over there sounds so relaxed...isn't it??? LOL =)

Performance Review

2008-12-15T20:24:00.003+08:00

This morning had a meeting with my manager from my department, the purpose of this meeting is to check out how am I adapting to the working environment over there since my 2 months here and had a good discussion on my performance and working attitude.

I managed to reach my office at around 9.45am but that Nurse Lily didnt help me cover up for being late some more add more problems to it, making me dun really like her attitude she puts on today. Thus half of my mood for the day was spoilt by her but didnt care much...took my pass then went down to the staff canteen that area cos gonna meet my In-charge, Mr Daniel at the Operations Office which is located somewhere there.

I was pretty punctual for the scheduled appointment so went to look for him then we both head down to the staff canteen where he treats me over a cup of coffee and there was where we both had a good talk over my performance and attitude over the past 2 months. The talk went on for almost an hour or more but overall glad he was happy with my attitude and the work I presented.

After the discussion I return back to my office to continue with the work I am assigned with...everything seems alright until later in the evening someone broke some bad news to me that hurt me alot to a point that I almost burst into tears...right now i particularly have no mood for anything lor, just wanna be alone!!!

Laptop crashed...

2008-12-14T23:58:00.000+08:00

Haahaa...thanks to my sis whom carelessly toppled a glass of water over my laptop yesterday over my auntie's place thus my laptop got crashed. The moment I reached home yesterday night was to transfer all important data into my external hard-disk then tries to do a reformat to see if it could be "saved" but after trying for hours, it doesn't seem to be functioning as normal lor.

The whole of today I tried reformatting again but after the necessary procedures, it seems to show a black screen the moment it tries to logon to windows then would hang for quite some time but still not able to get into the Windows page...

In the end I had no choice but to give up and request my mum to help me bring over to ACER's service centre to see if could still be repaired. But glad I managed to transfer all my important files, like my photos all to my portable hard disk cos i know this time if were to send over to ACER, sure those data won't be able to get them back...just hope minimal charges will be incurred and I dun need to get a new laptop cos I am used to using this laptop already...

Big Gathering...

2008-12-13T23:50:00.000+08:00

The whole of today was at my auntie's place with my cousins and their children...this day was really another joyful day cos being with the kids can really make a person cast away all their problems and make them feel happier and younger.

As usual, I would had breakfast with my mum and auntie at the coffeeshop under my auntie's place but only difference is both my mum and I didn't head back home but went over to auntie's place instead, then telling my auntie to prepare our share since we are having dinner over there tonight.By afternoon, my sis came over and join us and to my surprise...she didnt wanna attend her colleague's child's party so asked her to stay for dinner too.

Then around 3-4pm plus, my second cousin brought her kids together with my fourth cousin's kids over to my auntie's place...drop them there then left for her shopping spree with my third cousin and fourth cousin whom is already waiting at City Hall. Haha, seems abit confusing right but it's lidat cos my auntie has 4 daughters and 1 son so whenever their family gathering on every saturday, the whole place sure gonna be a CHAOS cos there will be a total of 6 kids lol.

Like today, all of them were there thus making a total of 9 kids and total of 12 adults all cramped in that small flat. The whole place looks like a fish market lor when you see all the kids running here and there...

My cousin's children :

Among all the children there, there is only two whom I loved the best and they are my second cousin's youngest daughter - Yenni and my fourth cousin's youngest daughter - Shi Ning. These two is the most adorable one among the rest and they are the one always closest to me always when I go over every saturday...they are also the only kid that can cheer me up with their all kinds of funny actions.

Yenni & Shi Ning

See how adorable they both are lol...

Again I enjoyed myself to the fullest for today...thanks to the kids whom make my life an enjoyable one. Love em' all!!!

I am fortunate...

2008-12-12T23:35:00.000+08:00

The whole of today was busy with my database entry again but luckily Nurse Lily was back so had her to accompany me to let time pass faster and also thanks to my patient, Mr Lau for giving me the "豆花" he had brought so very soon it's coming to 7pm where i then left the place and head down to Serangoon to get some things settled.

I met up with Dez and together with us both was Vincent and William over at Hougang area to have dinner. There were a total of 5 of us having dinner together and that was really something enjoying cos not only had good food, a free dinner treat from dez and also can have the chance to meet up with Vincent & william whom I haven't seen for quite some time already.

After dinner was settled, the guys hang around at a void deck under a block to have their smoke while me and dez waiting for Zed to arrive. Luckily Zed was fast so after he arrived and once dez was done, the three of us then left the place..heading down to Grand Cathay to see if we could catch a good movie for the night.

In the end, we all decided on the movie - "Four Christmas" cos that is the only available in the earliest slot as the others are all at later time in which Zed won't be able to make it cos he still had work the next day.

There the three of us are, purchasing tickets for the 12.20am show. As it was still early, dez decided to grab some sushi @ Suki Sushi. Both zed and I didnt feel like eating but no choice had to go ahead with dez whom wants to eat...in the end we both had a drink and helped to finish off the sushi.

It was soon time for our show so quickly settled for bill and went up for the movie...it was a 2-hr movie so by then it ended, it's already 2am so thus all left the place where Zed drove us back to our respective places.

"The Movie - Four Christmas"

Wasn't I fortunate??? Being able to enjoy happy moments with my group of close friends...like the dinner we all at hougang, the hilarious movie I catch with Dez and Zed @ The Cathay? What else can I still asked for when God had already brought me so many good friends to share happy moments with??? I am really contented to know them all.

I m loving my job...

2008-12-10T23:16:00.001+08:00

Mmm, I guess nobody could be so fortunate like me bah to be working in such environment where everyday there are full of interesting happenings and little surprises from either colleagues or patients that can make a day a worthwhile one.

Like for today, the moment I reached my office I had a piece of X'mas fruit cake placed on my desk..heard from Chang it was sent from the Nursing Admin in celebration of the coming festive, Christmas. So there was Chang and I enjoying ourselves to the yummy fruit cake...

The reason I said I am fortunate partly was cos nobody is supervising me so my work and time is very flexible...like for this morning I woke up very, very late and by the time i finally reached my office it's almost coming to 10.30am already lol!!! Luckily my supervisor didnt come look for me else if she knows i come in so late me sure kenna one.

Back to my work..after having that yummy fruit cake I was down to my work which kept me busy until 6pm then left my work place and took the train down to Woodlands to meet up with Dez to have dinner there before going back home...by the time i reached Bugis it's almost 10pm plus so asked my mum n sis if they both wanna join me for supper @ the 24-hr Prata shop? glad they agreed so then shared with them both a yummy paper prata over there before heading home.

End of holiday!!!

2008-12-09T22:53:00.001+08:00

Haix, the long weekend is over already that means had to return back to work liao not like my sis so good-life still enjoying herself with my mum @ Cameron Highlands lor...so there I am back @ my company lor but again sianz cos Lily not back from her leave yet.

So stayed in office till 6pm then took bus 197 back home...there I am down to preparing home-cooked dishes myself cos really dun like to eat out as outside food contains lots of MSGs. Today's dishes are almost the same just that instead of cabbage seafood soup, I had it replaced with cabbage fish ball soup and together with it is Fried Beansprouts with "台湾香肠" and the other dish is "香肠炒鸡蛋"...aww, so yummy!!!

After having my dinner, I am done to cleaning the whole house...from mopping the floor to keeping away the dry clothes, etc. Everything has to be done before 9pm such that I can go down to Jalan Besar Community Centre @ Lavender to pick up my mum and sis whom will be back from their holiday trip today.

Too true...

2008-12-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm...recently I have been vexed over my current job on whether should I still stay on or should I find myself another job??? So decided to seek advice from my daily horoscope reading to see what it has for me...

"Not being comfortable with your current job situation may make you restless. But today is not a good day for you to make the change. Maintain a commendable level of performance and wait for a better time to make a move. Do something enjoyable after work by treating yourself to something rewarding."

Guess it sounds abit true...cos I went to see alot of advice from my horoscope they all think I should stay on with my current job for the time being first cos now the economy is not so good so it's good that I have this job and leave unless there is better job opportunities out there for me...Hmm, so I guess for now just stay on to this job first lor and I should be glad that I wasn't affected in the recession lol!!!

Back to my holiday...

As I am sick of eating the food at the nearby food centres so decided to prepare some simple home-cooked dishes for myself at home today. Thanks to the vegetables I brought from the market yesterday thus able to make some simple dishes today...for my dinner menu, it's as follows :

- Fried Bean Sprouts with Beancurd
- Cabbage Soup
- Fried Fish

haha, home-cooked food is still better than outside food LOL!!!

Busy Sunday...

2008-12-07T22:03:00.001+08:00

Yesterday had a busy night lor cos a friend of mine was badly drunk after clubbing and I was worried for him so asked him and the others over to my place to spend the night at my place...the whole thing kept me busy until 5am then I finally managed to catch some sleep.

Then till late afternoon then went over to the market to get some vegetables such that i can prepare some simple meals for myself for the next few days in which my mum wont be around...then get down to preparing some simple dishes for me and my friends for simple dinner later at night. Around late evening, Dezmond and his friend Zed came over to my place to get his things settled...making my place so much lively. Haha, somehow my horoscope reading seems true for today ah. I still remembers what it says for me for today lor...

"Relax and spend some time at home today. Invite some friends or relatives over if you're feeling lonely. Call it an early evening so that you can get plenty of rest for the upcoming week. You may be a lot of tasks and you'll want to be well rested so you can take them on."

Seems almost 100% true ah...true that today I have a few friends over my place. First was dave and eric, then followed by dez and his friend. But something not true was I didnt call it an early evening cos later at night after we had dinner, dez's friend drove us all to Changi Airport for dinner at Popeye's and then after sending dave back home I went over to GIANT hypermarket with dez and zed to shop awhile before calling my day an end.

Tml is a public holiday but i guess i will be spending my day at home bah like wad my horoscope says that this week will gonna be a busy week for me in my work...good day for today, thanks to my friends all.

Gonna miss em'...

2008-12-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

Haix, not only I didnt get to go for my HK trip but for the rest of the 4 days I gonna spend the long weekend alone at home myself cos my mum and sis going for their 4D3N trip with the community centre to Cameron Highlands. My family did asked me to go along with them but I didnt want to cos I dun like going neighbourhood countries so rejected their request...

Hmm, in the late evening helped my mum and sis bring over their luggage to my auntie's place for they are leaving around 9pm and cos my auntie prepared my favorite food - "popiah" so went over there to eat dinner. But in the end I was busy wrapping the "popiah" for all my cousins and their children but for myself didnt get to eat only until 20mins later...then came around 8.50pm helped to bring their luggage down and send them off before me going over to PLAY to meet up with my friends there.

Luckily still had william and ivan to asked me over to clubbing or else I gonna be bored to death sia!!! But tonight I didn't really quite enjoy myself there lei, think partly miss my family bah and on top of that I didnt order myself any drink so didnt went "HIGH" lor. But glad I still mananged to take a few photos with them all before I left the club for home...

with dave & eric :

My OFF Day!!!

2008-12-05T22:15:00.000+08:00

Yipee, finally get myself to relax for today but actually I am now suppose to enjoy myself with my family in Hong Kong one lor but that stupid tour agency which I dun wish to mention spoil all my holiday mood making me now had to spend my long weekend in Singapore instead. Haix, since today is my OFF day so make full use of it then...

As my sis also had her OFF day today so there are the both of us going shopping around, hoping to enjoy ourselves today. The first thing I need to get it DONE was a haircut cos the long fringe is making me very uncomfortable so no matter wad I had to get it trim by today...thus went over to Tampines to look for my friend to help me get it trim neatly n tidy. Glad it was nicely done after the help from him...

A Freshie Me with my sis...

After the hair-cut, we both then took the bus back to Tampines Interchange and then took bus 65 down to Orchard cos we both gonna start our shopping spree there. But we both had a shock when we realized the time we finally reached Orchard...the journey from Tampines to Orchard was ridiculous lor. It's almost 1.5hours lor!!! We both then quickly go over to This Fashion to see if we could get some apparels for ourselves...but sad for me cos in the end I dun see anything that fascinates me but my sis managed to purchase a few very nice outfits lor.

After making the purchase, we both then took a bus back to Bugis where we had dinner at the temporary food market located near the MRT station before continuing our shopping at bugis junction...looking at the X'mas Deco there.

Bugis X'mas Deco :

That was how I spent my off day with my sis for today...

Back to work...

2008-12-01T20:50:00.001+08:00

Today returned back to my company for my work and again sianz cos there is nothing much for me to do...haix it may seems good to others that this job is so relaxing but to me not at all cos that means time passes VERY slowly when I have nothing to do, worse still if my "noisy" nurse Lily is not around to accompany me lor.

Like the whole of this week she went on leave and together with me is Chang whom is a part-time nurse...Chang only works till 3pm everyday so that means I will have to go to K.R.W the security that side to collect the key to lock up the place at 6pm sharp everyday then I am allowed to go home unlike with Lily around where I dun have to lock up the place and can get to leave my work place early also.

As for today, again I cant get to leave my work place early liao lor cos the key is with me so had to wait until 5.45pm then lock up the place n walk slowly over to the security office at K.R.W and then took the shuttle bus from there down to Dover Station. Normally would just walk over to Buona Vista Flyover to take bus 197 but cos later meeting my family for dinner @ Chinatown so take bus from Dover station would be faster.

The journey to chinatown was pretty fast so it was only 7pm when i finally reached there but cos my family haven reached the place so I then went over to Da You deparmental store to shop awhile. While shopping, came across some very nice X'mas greeting cards so bought myself one pack and also my favorite - "Old Gold Dark Chocolate Bar".

It was then 7.30pm my mum and sis finally reached the place...I even told them off lor that if they still dun come, I think I gonna spend alot more $$$ on buying unnecessary stuffs already...without second word, we all then head over to the hawker centre where mum ordered a claypot rice and a steamed fish head for us all to share. This shop where mum brought us to was famous for its claypot price that costs only $10 for 3 person's share and also the yummy steamed fish-head that cost less than $20. What a yummy, scrumptious dinner we all had tonight...

A good morning to start...

2008-11-30T20:26:00.001+08:00

This morning woke up pretty early then before so decided to go along with my family over to Chinatown Hawker to have breakfast. Hmm, it has been so long since I last had this chance of joining them for breakfast cos I tend to sleep till late afternoon then wake up and by then they are already back for breakfast like lol!!!

So there we are eating our favorite, Fish Porridge with fresh "鱼生" but that is still insufficient for both my sister and I lor such that we both requested our mum to buy us another plate of yummy duck meat to share...like the saying - "早起的鸟儿有虫吃" which is indeed true lol. If like normal sunday mornings I were to wake up so late, i would have missed such yummy breakfast like today liao lol...thanks to mum for the treat sia!!!

"鱼生和鱼片粥"